yume Posted June 23, 2010 Posted June 23, 2010 Now I know how it feels to realise that the person you love no longer wants you, and has moved on. I hate myself for being weak and ending things when they got tough. It feels like the bottom of my heart has been ripped away and I'm bleeding on the inside. Feeling like this makes me feel like life isn't worth living when all it is is pain, and causing pain in others. I don't know how to be happy and I don't know how to stop loving him.
Username37 Posted June 24, 2010 Posted June 24, 2010 It's a terrible feeling. I broke up with my first love 7 weeks ago. We were perfect and I saw a future with this chick. Every time someone brought up "Oh what will happen if you break up?" I would laugh, call them stupid and shrug them off. Now it happened to me and it SUCKS a lot. Especially since my ex girlfriend moved on so quickly. She's hooking up (not in a relationship with...HOOKING UP) with some new dude and is just different....really, really different. But from the way she acted and what she told me after the break up, I expected this behavior. I'm not 100 percent yet. I'm at the point where yeah I think of her once in a while, but it doesn't hurt me as it did 5 weeks ago. This isn't the end of the world. I thought that at first. Just take it slow and you'll be fine Good luck to you
Ckyh Posted June 24, 2010 Posted June 24, 2010 Now I know how it feels to realise that the person you love no longer wants you, and has moved on. I hate myself for being weak and ending things when they got tough. It feels like the bottom of my heart has been ripped away and I'm bleeding on the inside. Feeling like this makes me feel like life isn't worth living when all it is is pain, and causing pain in others. I don't know how to be happy and I don't know how to stop loving him. I know exactly how you feel and it's such a horrible place to be in life. We have to be strong Yume. We made our choice and have to live with the consequences...I have my fingers crossed for both of us. x
Author yume Posted June 25, 2010 Author Posted June 25, 2010 I know. The right decisions are never the easy ones. I'm scared that I'll always regret my decision, knowing what I've lost, and what I've done: forced him to move on, forced him to not want me anymore. It hurts. But I did that. I did it, and it hasn't sunk in until now. I know there are still be days when I'm down, and I'll miss him, and I'll realise again he's gone from my life...soon to be moreso because we won't be working together anymore...and I'm so scared for that day to come...because even when we weren't speaking, seeing him, even the back of his head, was a reassurance that he was still around, that he still existed, that he's in this world and not some figment of my overactive imagination. He's gone, I did it, and I have no one to answer to but me.
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