edwards99 Posted June 23, 2010 Posted June 23, 2010 long story short..my gf and i broke up about 8 weeks ago..mostly my fault..insecurities..poor self confidence..turning into the a different person..and i really was..i was very moody and so on..and didnt know how to change myself for the good..she stuck by longer than she needed to..and tried but it went from bad to worse..so i ended up leaving..latly we have beeen talking again..i am in councelling and have been since the moment i left..to better myself and get us back on track..she sasy she doesnt want to live together for 6 months while i get my life in order..i lost my job sometime ago and so on..she tells me she wants no one else..and loves me deeply..wants us back to what we were..and wants us to spend time together and so on during this 6 months..just doesnt feel we should live together..oh and the last year we also worked together..so 24 hrs a day 7 days a week.. so i was talking to her son about a week ago..and he is a roten kid..known for lying and sh## disturbing..he told me she was with another man..she is 38 and the guy who is a friend or was of his is 21..i know that they both are close..he lived there on her couch way back before i met her .."this kid" was actually dating her daughter when i left....while we were together she thouight of him as one of her kids..i cant see this happening..to be honest..but if it did..or there was a fling..do i continue with her..if anything did happen while we were seperated..or on a break or whatever..i love her deeply..i trust her bt i also have trust issues and inseucrities..so it is driving me nuts..but i kinda dont want to let her know that..as i am working on it..her son could be just trying to cause crap..and i would hate to start something bad..i wanna beleive her that she wants a future..she says alot..and we are now back to saying..i love you..calling each other honey and baby..and we tell each other how nice that feels.. i dont know.i want her so bad..but if somethign happened..i dont know if could look at her the same.
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