Indian3677 Posted June 22, 2010 Posted June 22, 2010 i am an undergrad MBBS student final year, always in my own world, sittin at home on the net, hate studying, unresponsible, do not care about by college environment, jus enjoyin all the time with my friends, bunk classes etc etc... i absolutely do not talk to girls.. very cool dont know why but am like that since college days.. Problem is, suddenly i have fell for someone.. on insistence of some friends of mine i started chattin with this girl on cell.. panicked and lied to her that i had a depression disorder.. she is somewhat very open, talks closely.. then we met in library and she came to know that was lying.. she was impressed by me i think and said yes the first time.. she also said that she had a relationship in 10th standard.. next day i came to know that she had a boyfriend at her place.. figured it out somehow... something happened to me.. behaved very weirdly.. talked to her somewhat threateningly.. i just cudnt keep away from her, started calling her (i dint know what to speak to her).. i made some 30 to 40 calls whereas she just 3 calls i even talked about all her friends to her n even my friends.. the bad things they say about her which i had come to know.. continued lying to her.. i made a fake love story of mine.. a fake depression.. fake psychiatrist etc etc.. just to speak to her.. it became big.. on basis of these lies i disscused some false issues with her face to face.. she knew it that i was lying.. she reminded me that she had boyfriend many times but i dint kno in wich world i was.. i think i lost my reasoning capacity.. These lies inturn started hurting me wen i finally had decided to stop speaking to her(had stopped talkin for 10 days).. cried sometimes.. went to a hill station (ooty.. in south india).. just to bring her chocolates.. Then finally i went to library.. confessed my lies.. she advised me to forget the past... think about my parents.. start studying etc But the thing is i cannot get rid of her from my head... 24*7 its only her.. obstruction in my studies.. i dont understnd y i spoke to her lik that.. in an impressing manner, lies etc.. they all keep entering my head.. just cant forget her.. FEel gud wen i m indoors for 2 days.. the next day i see her.. it all starts again.,. my behaviour totally changed.. attitude towards my friends, parents changed .. i hav told many people about this.. even to some of her friends whom icriticised about to her.. she keeps givin me that odd look in college,.. wich frustrates, confuses, weakens me.. sometimes i feel lik a total loser, good for nothin, aimless prat, mentally retarded person... I m jus very afraid of girls, talking to them (shy).. shudn hav talked to dis one she doesnt lik me.. bcoz i was a psycho crazy behind her all the time.. jus dint get to show her my true self.. talks kinda a strange on phone.. doesnt giv heed to my texts.. wich weakens me my mood.. worries.. bed is d onl;y solution lost interest in browsing.. net ..movies.. music.. etc.... its only worries for me JUS FED UP OF THIS CRAP... HOW TO IGNORE HER??? I FEEL VERY WEAK not understanding.. wat d F**k has happened to me???? dis is the biggest lie... drama in my life
JacquesA.LeFrancais Posted June 22, 2010 Posted June 22, 2010 Wow, that's quite the post. I know it can be hard to let go of something you hold dear and want to show you love. I am going to be blunt and honest with you. You seem very unstable friend. And it is no wonder she wants nothing to do with you. What you have described here would alienate any woman, or man. If I had a GF do what you did, I would seek a restraining order. My Friend, man up. Be strong, grow a pair, and resolve yourself to the fact that it isn't happening. Join a dating site, go out have fun.
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