soheartbroken Posted June 20, 2010 Posted June 20, 2010 So, it's been just over 11 months now, and I'm feeling quite down today. Perhaps because I'm suffering from some flu-like symptoms and have been in bed for almost 24 hours now. Ugh. At 10 months I remember still being quite depressed, still experiencing physical pain over the loss. Then, out of the blue, a very good looking girl started showing lots of interest in me. This gave me a huge self-esteem boost, and my mood practically changed over night. This girl asked me out to dinner, and over the course of a month, we hung out a few times, texted, flirted etc. She would also come into my store once or twice a day. Unfortunately, on our last outing, she started rambling about how: she feels vulnerable; she doesn't like to date; she feels insecure; people always have ulterior motives with her, etc. Needless to say, I got a sinking feeling that she was feeding me a bunch of let-me-down lines. To make a long story short, I sent her an email after that evening and I haven't heard anything from her since. She avoids coming to my store. I felt really blindsided and totally lead on. I mean, she could have at least responded to my email and given me some closure. Since that time I have been feeling very lonely. It was really nice to have a new "interest" to focus on, but now I am bored and very jaded about the dating process. To top it off, I have started dreaming about my ex again, and today I really miss her. It feels like just yesterday we were living together and she loved me. I'm pretty certain that I'm still in love with her..
tojaz Posted June 20, 2010 Posted June 20, 2010 Well SHB I'm going to start by saying :bunny: Good for YOU!:bunny: It takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there again. Its hard to let yourself trust again. That alone is a big step forward, even if it didn't work out, because you can see that you can show interest again, and you can be attracted to someone else. I had a very hard time when I made my first attempts to date. Made some great women, some that deserved a lot more then i was ready to give, and yes, had a few that like you they just vanished unexpectedly. Its a fine balancing act and your going to have to learn as you go. Dont let this recent backslide discourage you, You have traveled a great journey just to get where you are now compared to where you were, but there is still lots of ground to cover. Take a breather, lick your wounds, but keep moving forward. Your doing great SHB dont tell yourself otherwwise. TOJAZ
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