Ro2Pi Posted June 19, 2010 Posted June 19, 2010 Hi everyone. I've posted here before about this but long story short: My gf and I were dating on and off for 3 years. At the end of 3 years she left me and immediately rebounded with someone she hated. I tried very hard to keep no contact and after a month (financial problems) I moved out. 2 more months went by and she'd try to make contact, just be friends. I was disgusted by the idea but after some time and 'innocent' but convincing conversations I said yes. Had sex, both of us were upset sort of to be hurt again... Later that week I gave her an ultimatum to either try something anew or I disappear. In retrospect it was a little dumb because ... ah I don't usually like ultimatums. We got back together and everything was so much better than expected. For two months we were in heaven. Could be just the rush of emotions but it felt like the world was right. I had to leave for 2 months for a job and so it was difficult to part. The time difference is 12 hours which doesn't help at all with communication. After a month she's started to have doubts because of the lack of communication. We're heading into 4th year of college so grad school applications is extremely stressful. Eventually she talked about this and her doubts for the relationship with reasons similar to the past breakup. Now I sense that she doesn't want to break up for a chance it will work (I'm back home in 2 weeks) but even if it does ... the negativity of grad school is a looming factor... `I've given an enormous amount of commitment and emotion to this to find out that 'hey I have doubts'. Her mannerisms changed in chats and is being a little more distant. I've tried to make the conversations and communication more lively and it's working... but in the end the 'I love you's are only memories. I'm not here to ask why she would do this or what have I done... Just what do you guys think I should do? I figure two options... 1. Leave. I'm so deeply hurt by the idea of this. The only motivation I have so far away was to come back home to my lovely gf and life... to continue where we left off. 2. Endure the last two weeks, get back home and attempt to show her the love once more... and to see if there's any left. I'm lost, hurt, and scared of whatever scenario I choose. I feel like only a miracle could make her love me once more AND be seen as a possibility in her future. I don't have the courage to pull number one. The warmth of love is something I've been spoiled/privileged to have but my fear to lose such a thing is immense. My heart hurts to even consider this but I feel everything I say to her is pushing her away. Or isn't working. Sorry for my rambles and desperation. Any advice or perspectives anyone would like to share?
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