ConpletelyLost Posted June 16, 2010 Posted June 16, 2010 My dearest friend is gone!? How could I have let this happen?... I found the most wonderful friend 3 years ago...I have never felt so connected to another person (aside from my children, but thats different) He helped me through my divorce and subsequent break up from the rebound guy, he made me laugh, listened aned comforted me even when I was babbling hysterically and was just... there for me. He has some depression issues and used to be really heavy, so he's really self conscious about himself. I listened when he had problems, when he was incoherently drunk, anytime he wanted or needed me around I made myself available. After he was sure I was over rebound guy he confessed how much he wanted to be with me...I had never felt so happy! We dated for over a year, hung out as a pair and with his friends and family. He mentioned once or twice how much he wanted kids ( I had my tubes tied after my last child with my ex husband, when our friendship was still in the baby stages)...he was always saying how much he wanted to be with me but was reluctant to refer to me as his gf, even though his friends and family did...and talked about how he wasn't sure he could be what I needed... We hit a rough patch and he told me I should try to find someone who could make me happy and dissaperared for weeks... fast forward....I've been with new bf for 9 months and in the begining my friend and I were still just that until he started saying he loved me and all this other stuff and I don't want to hurt either one of these great guys! I love my bf, but it's differnt...he doesn't make me feel that giddy happy like before...now my friend decided he has given up and I said maybe we should just not speak anymore since it just seems we both end up in tears... I feel like theres a chunk of my heart and soul missing and I have no idea how to fix it! Any feedback would be helpful at this point!
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