Eclipse11 Posted June 13, 2010 Posted June 13, 2010 I am torn and confused, I don't understand anything six weeks after we broke up... When I was with him, I was unhappy...the reason was, he would often be silently disapproving of loads of things I did and I could tell that he was annoyed by his manner...soon, it just appeared that everything I did was a bit "wrong" somehow, whether it was meeting later than he wished or not being grateful enough for something he'd done... He said some very hurtful things right at the beginning of our relationship, saying how attractive other women were and also he "wouldn't necessarily pick me out of the crowd but we had a strong emotional connection" which hurt me... All the silent disapproval made me feel like I wasn't good enough and it wasn't long before I started to think every little thing was somehow him getting at me...I would cry a lot with him and I would feel very hurt a lot of the time...so I ended up breaking things off... HOWEVER...what doesn't make sense is, he would always send me the sweetest texts and would sometimes be really sweet and loving as well and all this has me utterly confused... Though I've broken it off I'm thinking, should I go back? In addition to this, he's telling all our mutual friends he's sad and he misses me and they all think he's the sweetest guy because they only see the good side of him... But because he had this good side, I'm questioning myself and feeling bad for us breaking up and blaming myself... When we were together though, he would regularly do little mean things to punish me and nothing I did ever seemed to be quite good enough and nobody would even believe me if I told them...towards the end I felt inferior to everybody else, he would put everybody else above me and act as if everybody else he knew was better...yet when I told my sister, she said oh come on, he was heartbroken when you left... I'm just utterly confused - I feel as if I both love him and hate him...! Nothing makes sense...nobody ever made me feel as bad as him, yet nobody sent me all these sweet messages and showered me with sweetness like him... I'm mixed up - Eclipse x
summerl0vesyou Posted June 13, 2010 Posted June 13, 2010 Its called emotional abuse- look it up. Abusers often give you the two extreme emotions- very high, and low. Dont go back, find someone who WOULD think you're the most beautiful in the crowd and would cherish you everyday of your life. you're worth it.
Author Eclipse11 Posted June 13, 2010 Author Posted June 13, 2010 (edited) Thanks Summerl0vesyou...noticed you've been helping a lot of people tonight... It's just so hard to accept it, everybody keeps saying he was abusive, I'm writing down the truth but somehow I still keep thinking, none of it seems to add up...but I'm coming to terms with it now... It must have been crazy...how come I was nervous so often when we met and once I couldn't even go round to his house? Just seems like he is intent on winning everybody over to his side at the moment...he is being very friendly with my sister and her husband on Facebook and letting them know how sad he is that I left...it'd be far easier if we didn't have mutual friends... It makes it very hard though when your family and friends think he's wonderful...and he was, to everybody but me! Eclipse x Edited June 13, 2010 by Eclipse11
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