Mornings Suck!!!

[Stephie]

Do you ever get to that point when you realize its all going to be ok then boom you have zero ambition to do anything you cry and cry looking back wondering why and how you got here. How someone you love with all your heart can be the one to rip it out then keep it. How it would even be possible for the next person to measure up to them. I really am trying to move on and start a new life but because of our past and present I still have hope that one day we will be. He always told me that if our paths crossed again after we both healed then it was Gods will and I truely believe that. I moved home 2 months after the breakup and didn't contact him for over a week. I still want him to know I care and the same so I asked him how the new job was thinking he would never respond but he did.

Look I'm not basing him responding on false hope of us getting back together but I don't want to loose contact with him he was my best friend for 2 yrs. Sure I could be mean and hateful and call him every name in the book but I have no reason to. He never did anything wrong, he was never hateful or called me names. All he ever said was he still loved me but something wasn't right we shouldn't be this unhappy or fight like we do. Yes he gave up but he did put a good fight up for the last 6 months of our relationship when I gave up and got depressed. Sometimes I ask myself did he really love me like he said because if he did I don't think anything would have been bad enough to walk out.

When it gets dark at night I can't wait to go to sleep but I dread the morning because its just another day of waking up without him anyone else feel like that? Mornings are the worse...

[Heatemyheart89]

Hiya.

Firstly I would advise no contact really.

If you have split up unfortunately he is gone. I dont know anyone who is best friends with their ex.

Secondly your going to be okay. Sure no one will measure up to your ex if you put them on a pedastall. But there are people out there trust me.

[paleblue]

Yes, I have felt that way. It comes and it goes. Believe me, the next person will do more than measure up, they will surpass. That is if you take some time for yourself. Heal. Meet a few different people, Get to know what you like. I wouldn’t suggest latching onto the first one that says yes. Don’t sell yourself short.

 

Personally I think his little line about possibly crossing paths again is cruel thing to say and it only makes you hold onto hope. He knows you care. If he cared he would be there. But he is not. Do yourself a favor and let love go. Don’t bother wasting your time being friends with him. It will only inhibite your ability to heal and move on. And you could miss that chance to meet someone that you are really meant to be with. Friends come and they go in life. He screwed you over. Do you really want friends like that in your life? I suppose if you do than you wont need any enemies.

 

If he really loved you he would be beating down your front door to get at you. Remember that. Do you hear anyone knocking? Nope. He just wimped out.

[Stephie]

I know but our situation wasn't good. We moved to a place where I had 0 friends I became very depressed we had no money to pay off bills and I quit us. I didn't try anymore as weird as it sounds, I always loved him but I looked for reasons to fight, I didn't communicate, I gave up on everything and finally when I accused him of the same thing twice in one week he couldn't do it anymore. I told him I could change but he stated why, why would it have to come to this for you to see. He said the way you feel now is the way I have felt for the past 6 months and looking back I remember all the convos all the fights the letter he wrote me in November asking me to talk to him that he use to not have to try to make me happy. He had a bad past as did I we both never recovered and it was sorta like we brought eachother down. Everyone in his life has abonded him at some point from his parents to everyone, and I think he thought I did the same. See thats why I can't give up they all did as did he. I'm not taking the full blame for our breakup he had his contributions but I did push him away. SInce we broke up we have talked, cried, laughed when he moved his stuff out he held me tighter than ever it was almost like he didn't want to let go. I know he hurts or did for a long while but I never understood why he fought and prayed so hard to stay away...

[EyeAlone]

Yes, I have felt that way. It comes and it goes. Believe me, the next person will do more than measure up, they will surpass. That is if you take some time for yourself. Heal. Meet a few different people, Get to know what you like. I wouldn’t suggest latching onto the first one that says yes. Don’t sell yourself short.

 

Personally I think his little line about possibly crossing paths again is cruel thing to say and it only makes you hold onto hope. He knows you care. If he cared he would be there. But he is not. Do yourself a favor and let love go. Don’t bother wasting your time being friends with him. It will only inhibite your ability to heal and move on. And you could miss that chance to meet someone that you are really meant to be with. Friends come and they go in life. He screwed you over. Do you really want friends like that in your life? I suppose if you do than you wont need any enemies.

 

If he really loved you he would be beating down your front door to get at you. Remember that. Do you hear anyone knocking? Nope. He just wimped out.

I don't mean to hijack your thread, Stephie, but I have been going through the exact same thing with my ex boyfriend of 3.5 years and paleblue's response really makes me feel like it's going to be okay, despite the lonely mornings and miserable nights.

[skydiveaddict]

I agree w/you Stephie, mornings do suck when you're trying to get over someone