JoyDevine Posted June 9, 2010 Posted June 9, 2010 The person who deliberately deceived me is to blame for hurting me to the core. Would you admonish a BS like that? If i wish to vent on a public forum instead of bottling up my emotions your perception on the usefulness or otherwise of my CHOICE is irrelevant. It is not victimhood to broach a painful subject. Victimhood would be seeking sympathy which is not what I have done. Furthermore, you have made so many assumptions from the narrative that I have submitted that your opinion is one that can easily be discounted as an attempt to be provocative/personal glory seeking. Only people I care about can hurt me or antagonise me. You are not one of them. I am so glad that you find it so easy to move on from painful events with nary a care. Some of us need a little time. Bravo. BRAVO!!! Excellent. I can tell from this post alone that you will be ok. Good luck to you and congratulations for freeing yourself.
pureinheart Posted June 9, 2010 Posted June 9, 2010 I am so very thankful to those posters who shared their experiences. There is a great deal of wisdom in your words. I wish you all happiness and a glorious future. I was so confused as to why I was bouncing off the walls when I had been doing fine. Now I realise that I hadn't dealt with any of it. Burying how I felt didn't work for me. I needed to face and truly accept what happened before it could be all boxed away in the darkest recess of my mind. Venting helped enormously last night. Attempting to Internalise those feelings would have been a mistake. I read somewhere that depression is anger turned inwards. I feel more on an even keel right now. I had a great day at work and received kudos for bringing an important assignment to a profitable conclusion. Work will have to be my outlet for the time being. Once again, I appreciate being treated with such courtesy (on the most part). p.s I laughed out loud at one point during this thread. The humor was so unexpected but sorely needed. ((((((((BoHo)))))))) It's going to take time...you may have good and bad days concerning this matter...we just want to be ok now and not go through the process of healing because it's uncomfortable... God knows your heart and He knew before you prayed that you didn't mean harm to him...well not really ...lol....you were mild compared to me...I wanted to call all of heaven down on exDM...I wanted him to suffer...lol...not anymore now, I don't care now:)...diligence heals all wounds.
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