This Hurts Posted June 6, 2010 Posted June 6, 2010 It's so odd that after you pass that stage with the agonizing pain, crying fits, hopelessness, battles with yourself and NC, etc etc. this process actually starts to seem beautiful. Instead of looking at it as "getting over your ex", or "falling out of love with your ex", you start seeing it as a journey to heal yourself, rejuvenate yourself, and getting to know yourself all over again. So you go from it all being about your ex, to it all being about you. Your ex becomes irrelevant. Yes, you still think about them, you still wonder what they're doing, it still hurts when the situation comes to mind, and you may even know that if you were to find out something about their new lives without you, you'd be crushed (well, this could just be me ), but you're okay. It's not "life without him/her" anymore, it's "life on my own"... if that makes any sense. At this point, it feels more like a journey. It's long and hard, but it feels worth it. And it feels good
What_Next Posted June 7, 2010 Posted June 7, 2010 I am happy to read that there is light at the end of the tunnel. My marriage is not "officially" over yet, but I fear the damage is done and it's a lost cause. I go through bouts of feeling at peace, extreme anger, fear, and sometimes feeling like I want to just jump off a bridge (of course not seriously considering that). I keep hearing that time will help, but the journey right now seems to me like something that I am not sure I can go through without losing what little of my sanity is left.
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