bigsby2010 Posted June 4, 2010 Posted June 4, 2010 (edited) Well, after posting here a few times and being told numerous times that I need to end the relationship, I need to man up and do it. I'm 21, my girlfriends 20, we've been apart for the past 3 weeks and have 2 more to go because shes in another state doing a summer course. During this time I've felt like our relationship has died. Before she went I talked about wanting to do skype a few times and a few phone calls whenever she could. She's forced to speak another language the whole time and is very busy so we don't get much time to talk. But when she has time to talk, I'm not a priority anyway. She's lost all sense of reality and is very caught up. She never tells me she misses me, and rarely says she loves me. She hasn't said anything positive about me since she's been gone. The issues I'm having are that she doesn't miss me, she rubs it in my face everyday how much fun she's having without me and basically implies that she's fine not talking to me, too. The boiling point for me is her drinking. She drinks wayy too much for my liking, and then texts me bragging about how she woke up with "earrings embedded in her ass, I.D. in her bra, wine bottle in her hand, phone in her other hand, and lost her hat". Oh, and add to this that she can't remember anything from the night at all. This isn't a rare occasion for her and I called her out on it, saying I was pissed and I'm not having a girlfriend like that. To which she replies " I work hard here, I deserve to have fun, you should be happy for me, and I do not regret a second of it." Obviously, she must be too pansy to end things with me, or she must be sticking around for other reasons. I'm doing good in University, have a good reputation with the professors in the department I'm in (same one she's in) , I've been told I'm very attractive, I have a nice car, I'm moving into a nice, new apartment in the fall, and I like to think I have a lot good going for me. I give her everything and feel like I've busted my ass for this relationship to work, and I'm obviously on the verge of giving up. Heck, we even went to Europe for 2 weeks before she went away. Why can't I just end it? Well, there are a few things I know for sure. Firstly, I'm not too worried about right now, but when she comes home in a few weeks I'm gonna feel it a lot harder, I'm sure. I'm worried about regretting it, although she's not doing anything to keep this relationship alive. I just need to do it. I've got lots of encouragement. I don't know why I can't just man up. I don't know if she even deserves the phone call for me to break up with her. I don't want to do it over text because that will get forwarded everywhere, I'm sure. I don't know what to do here. We barely talk because she's "too busy" but she has times of time to tell her friends she loves, misses, and can't wait to see them, but I never get included in any of that. Edited June 4, 2010 by bigsby2010
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