This Hurts Posted June 3, 2010 Posted June 3, 2010 Just a few weeks ago I could not stand being home. Every time I had nobody to hang out with and had no choice but to go home, I came home and forced myself to go to sleep because I just could not deal with the sadness, even if I had responsibilities. I felt like I NEEDED to be with people 24/7, or I felt like I was literally going crazy. I can pretty easily be home now Don't get me wrong, I would MUCH rather be somewhere with someone, or at a friend's house, but at least I'm okay at home now. I just can't wait for the moment where I can choose being home by myself over being at someone else's house. I used to love 'me time', or staying home all day and watching movies with my family. It'd feel good to go back to being my old self. I hope everyone's doing okay today.
hopefulguy Posted June 3, 2010 Posted June 3, 2010 i totally feel you man. it just past a year since my ex of 5 years left me. the first couple months i was never home...always HAD to do something with friends or be out. it just hurt to be home. now that i think of it, that feeling sucked so bad and im glad youre getting over that first stage. after a year im healed but im just stuck at the point of missing her sometimes. but now i love to stay home and watch movies, play video games, and just spend time with the family...rather than go out. ive felt alot healthier getting much needed rest and me time. it really was what i use to love doing and you will get there man, trust me. im glad your post made me realize that im here at this point.
Author This Hurts Posted June 5, 2010 Author Posted June 5, 2010 i totally feel you man. it just past a year since my ex of 5 years left me. the first couple months i was never home...always HAD to do something with friends or be out. it just hurt to be home. now that i think of it, that feeling sucked so bad and im glad youre getting over that first stage. after a year im healed but im just stuck at the point of missing her sometimes. but now i love to stay home and watch movies, play video games, and just spend time with the family...rather than go out. ive felt alot healthier getting much needed rest and me time. it really was what i use to love doing and you will get there man, trust me. im glad your post made me realize that im here at this point. Yeah, this stage really sucks :/ I feel so dependent. I've gotten used to having to stay home most week days—and I'm fine with it—but for example now that it's Saturday, I'm used to being out most of the day, and I might have to come home earlier and I'm not feeling too good about that. When did you go NC, if at all?
sugarmomma Posted June 5, 2010 Posted June 5, 2010 Learn to enjoy the company of yourself. If you can't stand to be with you, who else will? Use the time to reflect on how you attributed to the breakdown and what you can work on in your character to be a better person the next time around.
Sari Posted June 6, 2010 Posted June 6, 2010 Hey, I do know how you feel. I know we have discussed on another thread that we are both quite solitary creatures too, so this is v bad for us! I absolutely love reading so not so bad for me sometimes, just have to make sure I read something either funny or more upsetting than my own situation! Could you maybe get in to a good book that you can't wait to get home to read? Or maybe exercise might help, going for a big long exhausting run will mean that you a) fill up lonely time exerting yourself and tiring yourself out, b) achieving something too (endorphins, working towards a better body) and c) you can say to yourself "I managed to run by myself for 45 minutes and I didn't have a nervous breakdown, so there is no reason why I can't sit here and watch a film by myself either". I am longing for the time when I can look forward to sitting down in front of the tv with a box of chocolates on my own, at the moment that idea fills me with dread! Hugs and wishing you a bearable evening x
Author This Hurts Posted June 6, 2010 Author Posted June 6, 2010 Hey, I do know how you feel. I know we have discussed on another thread that we are both quite solitary creatures too, so this is v bad for us! I absolutely love reading so not so bad for me sometimes, just have to make sure I read something either funny or more upsetting than my own situation! Could you maybe get in to a good book that you can't wait to get home to read? Or maybe exercise might help, going for a big long exhausting run will mean that you a) fill up lonely time exerting yourself and tiring yourself out, b) achieving something too (endorphins, working towards a better body) and c) you can say to yourself "I managed to run by myself for 45 minutes and I didn't have a nervous breakdown, so there is no reason why I can't sit here and watch a film by myself either". I am longing for the time when I can look forward to sitting down in front of the tv with a box of chocolates on my own, at the moment that idea fills me with dread! Hugs and wishing you a bearable evening x Thank you for your response! I actually have one more class I have yet to finish, so that has been my main focus. After that, I'm free for the summer! Realistically, I won't have something to do EVERY DAY this summer, so that will force me to figure out a way to be able to cope on my own for those 'home' days. On the other hand, I'm afraid I won't be able to cope. But we'll see how it goes. I'll keep posting and trying to basically take notes on myself to help out my situation and help out other people struggling on LS, as well! I'm excited, but scared. Normal, right?
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