I need strength in staying NC

[HurtinginTexas]

Sat night is very hard. I know what hes been up to by reading the emails one by one with shutting off my phone, seeing hes planning on moving back to his old town, and the excahnges with the wife.

 

My string has been under Please help Im hurting but I dont know what to do. All I want to do is email and say how could he do this, how rotten, he promised me we would be together forever. I want to comment on all that I see he has been doing and to say what a rotten person to plan this under my nose. Im remembering all the fun and wonderful things we have done in 3.5 years. Im picturing what the rest of my life will be without him. Im paniced. I feel so horrible playing over and agin that this was so messed up that just tueday he made me dinner and made love that night, and wednesday he calls to say "I love you babe" before he takes off hours later to try to kill himself to get attention from wife. Now he has disappaered from my life, had my phone cut off and is ending our life with no word or Im sorry, or what I did to run him away, no word on how he can end 3.5 years with ease. No once of remorse. No ounce of decency since he said he never run out again like he did. I love him and the memories are flooding my mind. How does man just do that so brutally to a woman he loved.

 

Has this happened to anyone? He leaves with no warning and you thought things were fine?

 

Should I tell him off. I could never and would never get back with him as I knew these last months he said he was happy were a lie. The trust was way thin in the beginning.

 

Do you think he would ever have the guts to conatct me again, even if he got back with wife, even after all the messed up crap he did to me? I want to have the strength to tell him someday if he does that we are done.

 

Do you think Ill ever hear again?

[HurtinginTexas]

Sat night is very hard. I know what hes been up to by reading the emails one by one with shutting off my phone, seeing hes planning on moving back to his old town, and the excahnges with the wife.

 

My string has been under Please help Im hurting but I dont know what to do. All I want to do is email and say how could he do this, how rotten, he promised me we would be together forever. I want to comment on all that I see he has been doing and to say what a rotten person to plan this under my nose. Im remembering all the fun and wonderful things we have done in 3.5 years. Im picturing what the rest of my life will be without him. Im paniced. I feel so horrible playing over and agin that this was so messed up that just tueday he made me dinner and made love that night, and wednesday he calls to say "I love you babe" before he takes off hours later to try to kill himself to get attention from wife. Now he has disappaered from my life, had my phone cut off and is ending our life with no word or Im sorry, or what I did to run him away, no word on how he can end 3.5 years with ease. No once of remorse. No ounce of decency since he said he never run out again like he did. I love him and the memories are flooding my mind. How does man just do that so brutally to a woman he loved.

 

Has this happened to anyone? He leaves with no warning and you thought things were fine?

 

Should I tell him off. I could never and would never get back with him as I knew these last months he said he was happy were a lie. The trust was way thin in the beginning.

 

Do you think he would ever have the guts to conatct me again, even if he got back with wife, even after all the messed up crap he did to me? I want to have the strength to tell him someday if he does that we are done.

 

Do you think Ill ever hear again?

 

 

That "Im killing my self" crap act was to get the attention and help and to see if the wife was interesetd in getting reeled in again, and she fell for it hook line and sinker. He is saying he is willing to get therapy for her.

 

I think I may have run him off with all my nagging, and insecurities and questions and lack of trust and doubting him. Im sorry but when youre hurt and left many times I always expected it to come again. I feel I caused him leaving. I know if he truly loved me hed never do that and would have made efforts to fix what I thought was wrong. But he now back to her and I said if he ever did go back to his wife, and tried to come back at some point that wed be through. I said after us finally having a life and trying to move forward if we did that to me, and went back to her for him NEVER to expect us to go back to part time. I guess he never loved or cared about me. I guess I love you guys say like nothing and it has no meaning and guys can throw away memeories.

[BB07]

Hurting....you've got multiple posts of the same thing, doing so will get you in trouble with the mod here, hon. Suggestion........try to keep your posts contained to the OW/OW section. You'll get your best feedback there.