silverback_103 Posted May 29, 2010 Posted May 29, 2010 Hello all readers. I need help. I have a feeling inside me that is hard to describe. I originally thought it was depression, but i feel mistaken. To put it simple, I feel dead. I have no emotions, like I have no soul. I felt like trying suicide, but it just felt pointless and that it won't change anything. I've always sort of been 'isolated' by my self because of it and i feel like a ghost and purposeless. I know that this sounds selfish, but I can't carry on like this. It hurts everyday and I feel like I'm being killed over and over again. I've never told anyone my feelings, this is the first time I've even spoke of it. Please, someone, I don't know what to do anymore.
Eeyore79 Posted May 29, 2010 Posted May 29, 2010 It sounds like severe depression. You need to talk to a trusted friend/family member, or a doctor, and get some professional help.
Ronni_W Posted May 30, 2010 Posted May 30, 2010 (edited) Hi silverback. What you're describing is part of depression, as Eeyore says. I know it feels like you don't have any emotions but it is the nature of depression to cause us to not be able to access/sense our emotions. (The emotions themselves are still there, though...do not fear that they're actually absent. You're just having difficulty feeling them.) I would encourage you to get professional help because family and friends will not have the training or skills to help get you on the path to recovery, which, right now, is what you actually need to do most of all...and you also deserve the best mental health care available. I agree with Eeyore that your family doctor is a good place to start. You can also find out what counseling may be available to you through community/social services. Hugs, and very best of luck. Edited May 30, 2010 by Ronni_W
Author silverback_103 Posted May 31, 2010 Author Posted May 31, 2010 Thank you both of you, being told I do have emotions has lifted me. I have taken your advice and am going to see the dr. thank you.
Ronni_W Posted May 31, 2010 Posted May 31, 2010 (edited) Good job, silverback. I do think that is a wise self-decision, and admire you for making it. I reread both your posts, and you know what? You're already in touch with your emotions: You expressed a sense of, in other words feeling, "empty" and "lifted". Both of those are emotional states...and the two represent a broad range ('empty' is on one side of the spectrum and 'lifted' on the opposite side.) You also expressed 'gratitude', btw, which is another emotion. I totally get that you're not as connected/engaged with your emotions as you'd like to be, and a mental-emotional health professional will be able to help you with that. Wishing you much success. Edited May 31, 2010 by Ronni_W
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