edwards99 Posted May 26, 2010 Posted May 26, 2010 I met her on that date. she was the most amazing woman with the most desirable qualities. things were so so beautiful..we loved each other so much..cherished every moment..and then i lost my job..i lost my self confidence..my insecurities grew..silence became an everyday sometimes all day occurance.. After months of hell..she told me to leave..get my life together..get back to that man who she fell in love with..gave me back the ring. i worked with her from the point i lost my job but it was hell..shouldn't have made that choice..should have just gotten a job and gotten my life back in check..but i didn't know then what i do now.. Over the past few weeks, iving apart..she was mad..and resentful..i texted and texted and wanted to show that i didn't want to let her go..i was afraid she would forget me..although stupid to think..the out of site out of mind was what scared me. 30 minutes ago...i got the dreaded email...maybe the worst one i could have imagined getting..she wants the 6 month break..Keith get organized..get working..get a place..get your life back..its over..in 6 months call me..we can go out.. but as of right now we are finished.. Truthfully i know a few bridges that i want to introduce my F150 to..i am destroyed..i new this would feel bad if it ever happened but i am going ballistic inside.. I don't know what to do..please if anyone has any words for me..i need to read them..i feel that every door is slowly closing and my chances of surviving this are getting less and less..to me..i have no job..i am now not able to pay child support and support that aspect..i am living off my friend..and now i lost half of my heart.. Thanks Keith
Perhaps Posted May 26, 2010 Posted May 26, 2010 Hey Keith, I can completely relate to you and I can tell you that giving in to irrational decisions during a time like this isn't the right thing to do. You know better than that. You sound like you have hit a low point in your life and the right thing to do is to plan your way out it. Prove to yourself and her that you're better than this. Rise to the challenge. Get support from family/friends. You need to get your confidence back. Find a job, get your old, confident self back. Success leads to success. I don't really know exactly what to say but from my little experience, it seems to me that your lack of confidence is pushing her away.
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