KafkasLastWords Posted May 25, 2010 Posted May 25, 2010 So it's been a month and a half since he broke up with me. The whole story is up here in my previous thread. We are not in touch at all... in the beginning his parents, family members, friends etc were all calling me but I ended that. We have mutual friends and have both strategically played it so if one of them has a party only one of us attends so we don't have to see eachother. That's been pretty hard actually... especially since people keep telling me how he is numb and robotic. If you break up with someone and you are sure of your decision, shouldn't you be the one that is able to move on with your life? He had a head start in the healing process since he was the one that had been thinking about breaking up so shouldn't he be living it up by now? Anyway, on Friday I attended my first wedding by myself... it was AWFUL!!! I missed him so much during every slow dance, every time someone asked me where he was (since a lot of people that didn't know we broke up were there). On top of it all, it was the wedding of friends that were together 7 years, broke up for 7 months, then got back together and got engaged. I couldn't help but get lost in how beautiful their story ended up being but that will very likely NOT be what happens to us (at least that's what I need to tell myself)... so it sucks and it hurts. On Saturday I attended a party of one of our mutual friends for the first time, since I knew he wasn't going to go... in fact he told them he wasn't going because he wanted me to have a good time. That irritated me a ton for some reason. Going was a big mistake... I felt like everyone felt bad for me. I was incredibly uncomfortable and couldn't relax and have a good time. Lesson learned. Then yesterday, out of the blue, his oldest friend in the world emailed me to check in and see how I'm doing. Isn't there an unspoken rule about how his friends shouldn't contact me and mine shouldn't contact him? His friend wanted to see how I am and reminded me that he and his girlfriend are visiting in June. Obviously I am not going to be like "oh great can't wait to see you" since I can't see them since his friend and I are BROKEN UP. Is this a test? I am so frustrated. I miss them and a lot of his other friends that I grew close with over the past 4+ years but what's the point of staying in touch? ARGH!
Author KafkasLastWords Posted May 25, 2010 Author Posted May 25, 2010 Should I respond to his friend? Do I ignore anyone from "his camp" that contacts me? I really have no idea how to handle this. I do really well until something like this happens
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