CallMeKizzy Posted May 25, 2010 Posted May 25, 2010 Ive always said that i was never really scared of anything but the wrath of God. But i think i have found a new fear. My fear of leaving the nest. Now, i am a college student, this is my third year away from home. Usually a month or two before i leave i began to put in job applications, and i can say i have had a couple call backs this year. But over the past few summers ive been struggling, and not having my own money.Recently i came to philadelphia to visit my friend, and attend aparty. My friend kindly offered me to live with her at her home for the summer, and find a job in my field. I found over 20 jobs, ive had 1 guaranteed, and many that i was told were easy to get into to. and in my field. it all sounded good and all, and i've always had this dream of living in a big city, catching the bus, and living in the fast life. I called home to tell my mom my sittuation, what i wanted to do and such, Oh i also told my grandmother. my mom has become real non-chalant with me, and my grandmother told me that she was upset, and she would call me later....? sooo of course me, i am upset because i dont like to upset another person. BUT, i have began to second guess it, i dont want to leave my mommy, i found this attachment deep down inside that just wont let me go, i've prayed about it, cried about it, talked about it. and i just think about my brothers and sisters and how much they need me, ect ect. on top of that i have no way travel back and fourth(i live in maryland) if i wanted to see them, Im afraid. afraid of being independent, going out on my own. i truly truly can say i will miss my mom. what can i say they baby me..... they've always done it, and i think that i want to be independent so bad, but want to taken care of too....cant have my cake and eat it huh? i know what to do, i am afraid, it hurts me, and i am sooo tired of thinking about what i am going to do.....i need some advice, motivation, something.
Fouts Posted May 25, 2010 Posted May 25, 2010 Only you can make yourself emotionally ready to break the umbilical chord. Most young, successful people are eager to experience life on their own as an adult. I'm sure you do in most ways, but want to be taken care of also. I hope that doesn't transfer over to your personal relationships, because most men aren't too crazy about having a woman-child to take care of, no matter how nice looking they are. It gets old. Think about the things you want out of life the next 2 years and whether or not you can accomplish them from your parents spare bedroom. It's normal to resist change, but it's the one thing that's a constant.
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