bluz73 Posted May 21, 2010 Posted May 21, 2010 I cant believe its been a long 7 months of horrible pain since he said goodbye:( I can see some progress, but I still feel so low and unhappy a huge hole in my heart! It sucks worse cause he lives in the same town and we know the same people so word gets back to me in conversations and it seems his life is all full of happiness and mine plain sucks! Him and his teen lover of 7 months got an apartment 3 weeks ago(in a grungy part of town) and a new puppy together, new car, my old bed and furniture and they have this great little life. I never hear anything bad going wrong. They rushed into this realtionship soon as i disappeared. And they are still together and It disturbs me, cause after what he done to me he dont deserve happiness. I DO! He gets the fun life and the new things and love that he dont deserve after what he did to me and it sickens me he takes advantage of a teen girl who is just as codependent as him I cant seem to get over this hurdle of enjoying my life and having good things happen for me. I dont want to date, I cant trust my heart with no man yet, I cant share my life and Im stuck and dont know how to get out of this dreadful despair. Im a very attractive blonde with so much to offer but men scare me now and I HATE HIM FOR THIS! I shouldnt have to hide in the house, I should be seen and asked out on dates but instead I HIDE like an ugly monster in my bed most nights Any kind words would be greatly appreciated. Im having a bad day/week/month
skydiveaddict Posted May 21, 2010 Posted May 21, 2010 You will be ok. It's just a part of the healing process. I feel EXACTLY the same as you. We need to get you out of the house for some skydiving. Trust me, these feelings you have will subside w/time. Hang tough.
Author bluz73 Posted May 21, 2010 Author Posted May 21, 2010 You will be ok. It's just a part of the healing process. I feel EXACTLY the same as you. We need to get you out of the house for some skydiving. Trust me, these feelings you have will subside w/time. Hang tough. well i sure wish you lived closer id love for you to take me on a skydiving date. Thats prob what I need but im too gunshy UGH! Thanks buddy
skydiveaddict Posted May 22, 2010 Posted May 22, 2010 well i sure wish you lived closer id love for you to take me on a skydiving date. Thats prob what I need but im too gunshy UGH! Thanks buddy be careful what you wish for, lol! I move around a lot.
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