7 weeks later

[schoel]

relatively new to here. man does anyone have any reconciliation stories=) kinda depressing. been just under two months since my gf of 3 years broke up with me...she wasn't happy with some of our fighting that seemed to reoccur. i will say i had one hand on the door the entire time during the relationship because i wasn't quite ready to settle......for her part, she was a pure lover, i'm her first love.....even the week of the split she talked about us being together forever, our house, our boat...and everything else "we" would have together, children and all. since we broke, we've had a lot of contact, good and bad.....we've gone on two dinner dates which were great...she calls a lot especially if i don't, she keeps in contact with my sister....and she still posts on my fb.....the weeks before the break she was sooooo stressed with her last month of college and the fact that she was turned down by job after job. she told me she was lost and couldn't handle our stresses on top of it. last weekend was her graduation. she invited me to go and so i went and hung out with her family during the ceremony and then had dinner and drinks with all of them afterward. on sunday night i called her and told her that we can't talk anymore because the friends thing she is pushing on me is too much to handle, i need to move on. she went crazy, crying, sobbing, telling me how much she loves me and has wanted to get back with me but then we would have an argument and she would digress.....told me she'll always love me and i'll always be in her heart.....i was shocked.....i told her that since she is moving away in two weeks that now is a good time...she countered with the fact that now she isn't moving and we can talk about this........two days later i broke and picked up her call at 7am......we had an upbeat convo like usual....i then told her that she is just too important to me to completely slam the door on, and that if she ever really needed me, she new how to get ahold of me...she started crying and said they were tears of joy.....she reiterated though that she loves me but not in that way right now.....i'm pretty fed up with the back and forth but this girl is truly a great friend and we feed off each other, have great talks and a great connection still. for the sake of getting her back though, would you say to keep pushing her away? what about a girls perspective, can you relate to this at all. these ups and downs and everything? she's got a ton of friends but said in an email two weeks ago that going out with them has been fun but she isn't as happy as before......great girl, don't want her out of my life....but i'm not happy with half....ironic that it was me only givin half before

 

thanks

[schoel]

oh yeah, she's in vegas this week.....damnit=)