124Blu Posted May 19, 2010 Posted May 19, 2010 I was dating this girl for two years. We started out dating senior year of high school. Then she went to college two hours way from me so it wasn't that bad i'd see her about twice a month or more and we'd web chat, AIM, email, text the whole shabam. This girl loved me and i could really see it. I thought she was the one. This girl was so in love with me she would do anything. One time she took a train in the middle of her school week so she could come down to talk to me to fix a problem we had going on. Anytime we had an argument and she was home that weekend she would come over to my house sometimes not even knock just walk straight in and head up to my room. I truly felt she loved me and i loved her back. But a month ago she broke up with me. The couple months before that were pretty bad i was sort of depressed and so was she because we both didn't have many friends. So she joins a sorority gets the taste of the party life and leaves me. Since the day she broke up with me she hasn't really spoken to me. Last words she said were we aren't happy you should find someone that make you happy. I was so in shock that i couldn't believe it. I had never been broken up with so i didn't know what to do. i called her million times and she wouldn't answer. So that whole month i sort of left her alone and then i would call her none stop then left her alone again. But the weird thing is she never told me to leave her alone, she never told me to stop. I told her if you want me to stop ill stop just tell me. she didn't tell me. And for a couple of weeks she still had a picture of us on her facebook and she didn't cancel my friend request. i told her if were done for good or if you want me to leave you alone just cancel it. She didn't that whole month. She later removed the picture. But she would hack my Email and my facebook and open any messages my new friends would send me, my new friends are all girls. I mean if she wants me out of her life why would she me hacking my emails. she knows me pretty well thats how she gets in and i know its her because i check my login times and the IP address for my Gmail and they don't match up with mine. So i don't know if i should move on or wait for her to get over her new style. Shes back at home now, probably alone because like i said she doesn't really have my friends here in our home town. i still love her and ever since i met my new friends i haven't been depressed, upset about the break up but not depressed like before. I just want her back, weboth have new friends we're both happy why can't we be happy together right? I love her and i miss her so much.
GrayClouds Posted May 19, 2010 Posted May 19, 2010 I am very sorry for your loss. It is obvious you cared deeply for this person but sadly it does some to be over. She is moving on with her life and now you need to do the same. It is hard but you will be able to do it. It starts with trying to refocus your thought on you and you alone. It mean thinking about how to improve yourself and figure out what, not who, you want out of life. Read these two thread they will help guide you: The No Contact Guide So you want a second chance? It does get better.
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