what do ya think

[landonsbiz18]

my girl of just under 3 years broke up with me 5 weeks ago. we've been back and forth ever since, fighting sometimes, sometimes getting along. nothing physical since then. when i don't call for a few days, predictably, she'll reach out to me. she was all in throughout our years together, very loving....always talking about marraige since the first year.....myself, always had one hand on the door because of insecurities that need to be leveled out. i reaped what i sowed more or less. love this girl a ton and want to get back with her, but the games are taking there toll. wrote her an email two weeks back saying we shouldn't talk for now so i could get on with my life. she shot back an email basically back tracking and saying she needed to do something drastic because we weren't working out our big issues.......like hurtful things i would say, usually after a night of hard partying, again, very ashamed of those things and have worked on them over time. want to either move on with love or get back together with 100% certainty, so i'm cool with giving her time. here's the kicker.....she's supposed to be standing up in my sisters wedding next month....she came over two days ago after i hadn't seen her for a week and brought up that topic....saying her friends and family didn't understand why she is still doing it.......she also said herself that she didn't see the point since she would never see my family again.....i tried reassuring, basically cuz i was holding out hope that the wedding would be a bonding experience, but she countered everything. then she left on a bad note after another side her seeing me talking to one of her friends the other day.....jealousy a bit but not what i was intending, i ran into this girl randomly. anyway, she lift pissed off and i called my sister right then and let her know she wouldn't be standing up in the wedding.....my sister's been very supportive and understanding throughout this process...this was kinda my closure, i took down all the pictures, deleted her from facebook...i knew it wasn't the last time we would speak but it was a step in my recovery......later on, my sister contacts me and tells me my ex called crying and that we were back to square one.....my ex tells me later that night that my sister gave her reassurance that it wouldn't be akward there and she wanted to still go now.....anyway, she still doesn't call.....she says she's confident about her decision to not be with me.....yet i know there are mixed feelings.......i feel like i'm done playing....love her to death and she knows it but don't know if i can take this game playing anymore...she moves in three weeks also, about 45 mins away........should i reiterate again that she is not welcome at this wedding unless she is doing it because she wants to be with me.......or do i owe it to her and to us to let this play out and let her be there.....i still want her bad, would do anything for her, but the wedding throws a curveball into it the whole no contact bs that you have to go through......i feel like she is taking advantage of not just me but my family while she figures out what she wants