My break up

[Vova427]

This is my first post on this blog, I am not sure what to do any more and I guess sharing my story with people makes me feel a little better about the situation. So here it goes….

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I randomly meet this girl at the gym and without any expectations, I asked her out. Long story short we clicked and started dating right away. After being with each other for about a month, I get an email from her stating that she doesn’t feel a special connection between us and that she afraid that it’s the lust that she is feeling and that’s not what she is looking for. I never had anybody break up with me by an email so I went *and talked to her and after I left she texted me staying that she is sorry and she got freak out because she was very crazy about me. So I asked her should I ignore her email and she said “yes and that I should delete it.” Then couple of days later she started to be very short and cold towards me and on Friday night she asked me to come over to her work. When I came over I knew something was up and she took me outside and told me that she doesn’t want to be with me and its not working for her. Later that night I came over to pick up some DVD’s from her place and I asked for explanation she told me that she felt that I was ashamed of her and her daughter and that I don’t know how to interact with her daughter... I asked her to give me a chance that with time I will learn how to be around kids but she said no. The next night I couldn’t help and texted her asking what she was doing and she invite me to dinner with her friends, after dinner we went to see a movie and everything was going great. The next day I officially asked her to be my girlfriend, and she said yes. Everything was going great, until a week later when I get an email from her at my work. Where she writes to me that she thinks I am a great guy but she just doesn’t love me and can’t be with me. This time I thought why would *I want to be with the person who doesn’t love me and I didn’t asker to give me anymore chances. The next day she blows up my phone all day, she calls me. texts me, but I don’t respond until later that night, and she asked me to go to dinner with her as we planned earlier in a week. After dinner we go back to her place and she tells me that she loves me and wants to be with me, that night she emails me again

“Ha!

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I told you I will send you an email!!! ))

Are you scared yet? Freaking out????!!!!......

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This one is a good one actually...or so I hope.

First of all, I want to say that I love you. Not maybe. I just do. You are sweet and super sexy nice and so many other things...I can't even describe how you make me feel. I am very passionately in love with you actually. And that's why I am FREAKING OUT! Because, and that's secondly, it has been a very very very very long time ago I felt like this and it scares me ****less. Because, big surprise, just like you I got hurt badly. I still believe in big true love but when it hit me in between my eyes- guess what? I couldn't recognize it!!! *BUT!!!!!! )))) That doesn't mean when I get mad at you I am not gonna say something stupid - like- I think we are not compatible! LOL now, that you know this - and most importantly I know this- we both can move on, get over it and just accept the fact that I can't live without you! ))

And when I say stupid **** I don't really mean it. :)You said that I act like a child. OK. I do. I accept it as well. But you call me baby, and last time I checked in dictionary that means a very young child!!! ))) plus I am spoiled. So really. Deal with it OK? And I will try to work on it and get better.

And so here we are.

I don't know what the future holds. No one does really. I just know that you make me happy. You piss me off. You turn me on. You irritate me. You make me laugh. You make me wanna slap you. You make me think. You make me blush. You criticize me ( not just compliment me) but you also support me. I think you love me too!

I can't wait to see you tonight”

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Everything was going great until a week later, when she emails me on facebook saying that she needs time to figure stuff out because she been talking to this other guy when we first started to date and when she told him that she has a boyfriend he left her alone but recently she got back in contact with him and now she wants to be with him and me, and that she needs time to figure out what she wants. But not even few hours after she emailed me she tells me that she can’t be without me. *During Easter she gets very cold and short with me and fallowing Monday she tells me she doesn’t want to be with me and that she is dating the other guy. So I cry and beg her to take me back but all I would get is no… I am happy with him… until I asked her if she would marry me… I wasn’t ready to get married that day but I was desperate so I asked her anyways… she said she needed to call her mom and talk to her friends and everybody was on my side. So she gave me another change. We started to date again, we planed vacation together to visit her family, I introduced her to my family. And then two weeks ago she texted me at night saying that she is in love with somebody else (after she had sex with me a night before and telling me she loves me, and talking to me all day on the phone). *I cried and beg and all I was getting in return was her txt messages asking to “leave her alone she is happy with somebody else”. But a week later she texted me saying that her daughter is misses me and if I wanted to meet her for dinner as friends… being stupid me I went…I acted cool and calm didn’t talked about us didn’t beg her to take me back, in the end of dinner she asked me to stop texting her, I told her that she was the one texting me… She texted me next day asking, did meeting her last night helped me to get over her…. I asked her if she wanted to meet for dinner on Friday which she said yes… she then asked me if I wanted to see a movie after dinner. During dinner she got sick and I went to the store and bought her medicine and took her home. On Saturday I texted her asking how she was feeling and she said she didn’t sleep all night and that medicine did not help. I told her I was going to bring her different medicine and when I came over she told me to leave, and she knew that I am making silly excuses to help her and that she has a boyfriend and very happy. On Sunday she texted me saying that I am super amazing and that she wants me to be happy. She then said that every time she txt me I twisted around and if we can’t be friends with cant be anything else. I told her I will always want to be more then friends with her and that she needs to stop contacting me… she just replied “same” So it’s Tuesday and I feel like ****… I don’t eat I don’t sleep… all I think about is her… I want to text her but I am trying not…

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What do you guys think about my situation? Any thoughts, comments? World of wisdom.

[Vova427]

Can I get her back??? Somebody make me feel better please

[ReadyforLove]

O.M.G.

This girl sounds absolutely psychotic/bi-polar! She is playing with your emotions on a day-to-day basis. This is a horrible way to be treated by someone that you care so deeply about. I think the best choice for you at this time is NC. You cannot possibly have a healthy relationship with this person. She is so confused/twisted/mixed up! Run!

[Ilovecake]

Why in the world would you want someone like that in your life? Run for the hills as far away as you can get from this girl. She is mentally ill and will cause you nothing but grief.

[Vova427]

That's what everybody is saying... But I'm in love with girl... It's sucks because I put my heart and soul into relationship and now I feel horrible for not having her in my life :-(

[Vova427]

I'm on my 3rd day of NC... With each day I miss her more and more :-(.... Help help help

[Cens]

Well, I'm on my 4th day of NC, in a similar situation. It sucks, but its the only thing either of us can do regain sanity and move on with life. NC is about you finding peace, not getting her back.