Cantcope Posted May 10, 2010 Posted May 10, 2010 Today I reached 13 days NC. WAY proud of myself!! Saw him outside on a smoke break. He once again said "how's it going". I, with a huge smile on my face say "great"! (It was my original plan to outright ignore him if he spoke to me again in person. But I realized, in order to be indifferent, I can be poilte. If I'm a b*tch, he knows he still has a hold on me). Then he proceeds to ask how my mom is doing. What is his problem? I wish I didn't sit here over analyzing. Is he just trying to be courteous, or is he feeling me out? UGH!!!!
GrayClouds Posted May 10, 2010 Posted May 10, 2010 Today I reached 13 days NC. WAY proud of myself!! Saw him outside on a smoke break. He once again said "how's it going". I, with a huge smile on my face say "great"! (It was my original plan to outright ignore him if he spoke to me again in person. But I realized, in order to be indifferent, I can be poilte. If I'm a b*tch, he knows he still has a hold on me). Then he proceeds to ask how my mom is doing. What is his problem? I wish I didn't sit here over analyzing. Is he just trying to be courteous, or is he feeling me out? UGH!!!! he just trying to be courteous
Author Cantcope Posted May 10, 2010 Author Posted May 10, 2010 I wish that didn't disappoint me. I'm trying to move on, and I really am getting through this, but I still have that part of me that even though I don't know I'd take him back, I WANT that "i miss you" crap. I guess maybe I just want the "power". I'm exhausted trying to figure it out. lol
collegemommy Posted May 10, 2010 Posted May 10, 2010 You're doing so well!! I'm so proud of you... I know you want the I miss you's and all but it really makes it so much harder. I get the I miss you, I love you, etc and it rips my heart out every time. I wouldn't wish that upon anyone.
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