Pain44 Posted May 10, 2010 Posted May 10, 2010 I need advise and just to tell someone my problems, I live in a real righ neighborhood and have to be a sertain way to if a girl breaks your heart or cheats on u leave her that type of **** so it's hard to share my emotions with people, I'm a senior trying to graduate and I was with my girlfirend for 4 years almost at the end of 8th grade, this girl asked me out she was a sort of hoe that not alot of people liked so I didn't even consider beeing with her, the funny twist was I was trying to get with her friend well basecly she kept asking in txts I'm sort of a sweetheart and a kind dude so I felt bad saying no I sous just say I don't know, and finaly I felt kinda bad so I said ok fine, we started hanging out little by little and I had her for one class so I would see her were in the same grade, so time went by and i felt this chemistry with her it's hard to explain but we understoood eachother on alot of stuff, she was like the first girl I really felt she showed she was really interested in me she would txt me alot ad idk she was a different person from what people made her to be, and outta nowhere I really started to like her I noticed I started getting strong feelings for her, well time past by and it was sorta bumpy like after a month she told me she kissed some older guy and I was like wtf? I forgave her it didn't really bother me much I guess I was to into her, basecly from there she started just flirting with so much people she started changing and for about a year it was nuthin but bull**** I couldn't believe i went threw it, well she finally met this guy and she started to really like him and she ended up leaving me for him, what was wierd is we were together litteraly 24/7 I don't know how it could of even happen, I would cry and just cry I went to the store and bought her flowers nd a card and wrote her a poem and asked to please choose me, one day outta nowhere I get a call from her, she tells me she needs to talk to me, she comes over to my house with her friend and her friend tells me Ashley (the girl I was with) ****ed John(the guy she cheated on me with) and she said it just like that and I busted out crying and crying like the pain was unbarable, she hugged me and cried and said she was sorry and i guess from there the relationship got a little better, she stopped talkin to her friend the one who told me that, she was her best friend and what I noticed Ashley would act different around her friend she acted heartless, well like i said things got better after that she started showing me she loved me like I never felt before, everything was perfect yea we argued here and there but who doesn't, well now recently she started talkin to that friend that she was with alot, and she started acting different again she started acting more heartless, and from there things have been going down and I was sp confused bc I didn't know what was going on, outta nowhere she told me she don't love me and doesn't wanna be with me, and side note this is about 3 weeks ago and we beentogether for 4 years, and outta nowhere she would talk mess to me and just act like a bitch, she said she wanted space so I kept it cool and went along with it, the hard thing was I lost 95% of my friends i had no real frends I can be with so it was hard, and just recently I checked her myspace as a fake profile And she had 2 pictures of John in her photo albums saying my white boy, and her status said u ave changed Im happy your back in my life, that guy is a player and doesn't like her he just wants to hit I know people like him most friends I had were like that, and it killed me I couldn't believe it she told she hated him for making me cry all those nights beeing sad and depressed for her to be with him after she told me she hated him she wanted to kill him, check this her friend for Ashley and John to talk even after she knew what happend, now I'm trippen and I'm suicidal, threw the days at home or school I'm always high on pills zanex morphine or on weed bc without it I start to cry and breakdown, I asked my friend for his gun and asked told him I was gonna rob someone but I really was gonna plan to shoot myself and end my life, I was drunk and all barred out trippen cryinng putting the head to my gun screaming why god, I guess since my whole life has been like **** I'm even more emotional, I'm poor, I'm around guns drugs violence I have no dad and my mom treats me like **** I feel I have no one and after finaly feeling happy with someone this happens, I've gave the gun back but now I'm trying to ask for it back bc I can't take no more pain I've tried working it out with her but all she says Is get of my jock nigha leave me alone and stuff like that I don't understand what I did I've never cheated on her or been bad for her I've always been there for her and inmean always she would always tell me thank you for changing me I was a hoe and all this and I'm just suicidal I'm so confused I don't know what to do anymore
Chris1479 Posted May 10, 2010 Posted May 10, 2010 No more pills and drugs, major physical exercise, find a close friend or two whom you can confide in - and kick this psycho bitch to the kerb - FAST. No woman is worth blowing your brains out over.
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