Anyone else suffer from chronic Anxiety?

[FitChick]

I just read this blog about fear yesterday, which you might might find helpful.

 

http://www.mortylefkoe.com/how-to-get-rid-of-your-fears/?awt_l=Ad4FB&awt_m=1h1GIXoXbZHtOv

[Meaplus3]

Hi Mea, at least I know I can take a break from the seriousness of anxiety sometimes and have a laugh with you when we talk about what we go through.

 

Dittto.

 

 

The thing about anxiety is that you feel so abnormal, and people that don't get it actually believe you must be abnormal, or they think you can just will yourself back to normality as dazzle pointed out.

 

 

True. And I think that people like us need to not worry about how we appear to other's.. because it really does not matter.. what anyone thinks. If we continue to think that way.. it will keep us ill. I'm learning this. Anxiety is REAL and it can really mess up a person life.

 

 

I am still awaiting the specialist appointment for the colposcopy (sp?).

I started back on my meds recently and it helps. I decided with the help of my doc to take both the wellbutrin and the clonozopam. I mean, why wouldn't I do it? It helped me, and I can afford it again.

 

 

I wish you the best here. I'm sure you will be fine. Gald you are back on meds and they work. I need to find the right mix now.. but first be brave enough to start them.

 

Mea:)

[Phateless]

I've posted about my anxiety before, but a few threads of late have prompted me to write about it again. Sometimes it helps to not feel so alone with the disorder. I've spoken to some on here in private and exchanged stories- but tonight is a bad night and I wanted to talk about it.

 

What I find is that people that don't have anxiey, can't understand it.

I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I don't have panic disorders or social phobia, etc. What I experience is chronic worry that manifests as a heightened fear response in the body. I just posted to someone about how it feels to live with anxiety. My best explanation is that every day, all day- I live on the cusp of a fear response. You know that feeling you get when something scares the crap out of you- like someone sneaking up behind you when you are caught off guard? How your body gets a rush of adreneline, the hairs stand up all over your body, you might get a warm flash followed by a cold flash, your stomache does flips...? It's a fight or flight response.

 

That feeling is my existence all day- all the time. It never ceases.

 

I've taken meds for it in the past. A cocktail of wellbutrin combined with clonozopam works well for me, but I don't really want to be a slave to meds, so I go off them and try and control it.

 

I masque it very well. I have learned to adapt since I have had anxiety since I was a child. I don't remember ever not having this physical feeling of the butterflies in my tummy.

 

I am def going back on my meds soon as I know I feel better when I take them.

 

Yesterday I got a call from my doc's office that I had 2 abnormal pap smears in a row and they are sending me for a clonoscopy (sp?) (looking for cervical cancer). Of course I am in huge worry mode now waiting for the next test and results. I don't go for that test until next week, and of course I can't eat, sleep, or concentrate believing I have cancer. I think such an issue would cause any normal person to worry- but I am currently experiencing such an intense physical reaction that I can't settle down.

 

I guess I am just looking to others that can relate to me and if anyone has ever found a coping mechanism that I might not have heard about.

 

I can definitely relate, but it's usually related to relationships. The thought of being abandoned and alone in the world terrifies me, and the anxiety is so overwhelming I have a hard time functioning.

[Brady_to_Moss]

Have been on Lexapro for 4 years now due to anxiety..it has killed almost all of it which is awesome...problem however..i really have no feelings..i feel like a robot. I can tell the Lexapro really works for anxiety..but i feel like such a robot and cant get too happy over things...i guess its better than anxiety though

 

I have GAD as well

Edited June 6, 2010 by Brady_to_Moss

[D-Lish]

Hi Guys, thought I'd update, since I finally have test results.

 

Dittto.

 

True. And I think that people like us need to not worry about how we appear to other's.. because it really does not matter.. what anyone thinks. If we continue to think that way.. it will keep us ill. I'm learning this. Anxiety is REAL and it can really mess up a person life.

 

I wish you the best here. I'm sure you will be fine. Gald you are back on meds and they work. I need to find the right mix now.. but first be brave enough to start them.

 

Mea:)

 

Hi Mea- Sorry I took so long to respond, I didn't see your post earlier. I knew you'd understand.

 

I think I've found the right mix with Wellbutrin and Clonozepam- I was on it previously, and started back around the time I started this thread. Man, it makes a difference for me.

 

I can definitely relate, but it's usually related to relationships. The thought of being abandoned and alone in the world terrifies me, and the anxiety is so overwhelming I have a hard time functioning.

 

I think what you are experiencing with regard to relationships is a common fear. I don't know if it helps to point out that such a fear is common, but I know it helps me to know I am not the only person feeling a certain way about a certain obstacle. I deal with relationship avoidance as well- so I can relate P.

 

Have been on Lexapro for 4 years now due to anxiety..it has killed almost all of it which is awesome...problem however..i really have no feelings..i feel like a robot. I can tell the Lexapro really works for anxiety..but i feel like such a robot and cant get too happy over things...i guess its better than anxiety though

 

I have GAD as well

 

Brady- my med cocktail works for me. I don't feel stripped of my personality, I just feel calmer, less agitated. It's like ME, without the obstacle of those damn butterflies in my tummy that plague me on a minute to minute basis.

 

I think when you can find the right mix of meds, it makes a huge difference. Sometimes you have to play around with the mix. I have no side-effects on this particular pairing- and I know it's the right mix for me. I've lost a little weight again- but that has been my only side effect.

 

Anyway- The colposcopy didn't show any signs of dysplasia. I have to go back in 6 months in order to be cleared. I know I am going to be fine.

I feel like such a dick posting I am going to be fine, because I did overreact, lol.

 

I just thought I'd update those of you that have been Pm'ing me wondering about my results. I appreciate your concerns, and I wanted to thank you.

[skydiveaddict]

Glad to hear everything is OK D

[NoReason]

Hey D-lish, can I ask you, does yours feel like, it's hard to explain but, you 'forget' how to breath properly, like you feel your chest inhaling, yet your stomach is tensing up, and different parts are tensing up in non-harmonious ways lol.

 

I can't explain, but I'm feeling it now, it's happened maybe everyday this past week.

 

Wondering if all I have is just plain ol' 'anxiety'.. cause I feel like I'm gonna die.

[D-Lish]

Hey D-lish, can I ask you, does yours feel like, it's hard to explain but, you 'forget' how to breath properly, like you feel your chest inhaling, yet your stomach is tensing up, and different parts are tensing up in non-harmonious ways lol.

 

I can't explain, but I'm feeling it now, it's happened maybe everyday this past week.

 

Wondering if all I have is just plain ol' 'anxiety'.. cause I feel like I'm gonna die.

 

Could be a panic disorder? What you are describing sounds like it could be a panic attack?

 

There are many different forms of anxiety- including situational, if you're unusually stressed at the moment.