Cantcope Posted May 6, 2010 Posted May 6, 2010 Just saw him outside at work. He said "hi", I said "hey". Short and sweet. He looks gorgeous, as usual. A co-worker posted on her status the following: "Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength." Funny that he and I both clicked that we "liked" her status. I know I should be working towards feeling nothing, but I can't help but feel that maybe he IS hurting too!
collegemommy Posted May 6, 2010 Posted May 6, 2010 He could very well be hurting too... stick to the NC, you're doing great!!
Author Cantcope Posted May 6, 2010 Author Posted May 6, 2010 I know I'm only harming myself by over analyzing that he "likes" that quote. Going through the "did he want me to see that", since she is a mutual friend....UGH! I make myself tired. lol More importantly, how are YOU doing?
collegemommy Posted May 6, 2010 Posted May 6, 2010 I'm holding up for the most part. I'm not thrilled or anything but I'm content at the moment. I finally just had to let go and now I'm working on detaching myself entirely from him emotionally. I miss him sometimes. Our relationship was toxic too and it was unhealthy to say the least. I just really miss him though... I just want to hug him. I just want to cry on his shoulder. I want him to tell me everything will be fine. I want to know that he felt "something" for me. Maybe it's not even that I want him. I just feel lonely. I have never gone after a guy that I could not "get." Pre-relationship, if I wanted someone, I got them. Simple as that... He was the only one I had wanted for years that I never attempted to go after. So I think a lot of my problem is, I want what I can't have. Plus, I have this whole "he's mine" feeling. Like I'm entitled or something... I don't know. I try to shake these feelings off. Oh and the thing I sent you a text about last night, I think I misread it. Huge sigh of relief! I'll have to tell you why later. I can't tonight since I am heading to the movies with a guy friend but definitely soon.
collegemommy Posted May 6, 2010 Posted May 6, 2010 Oh and stop over-analyzing it! Don't get your hopes up over something that could mean absolutely nothing...
Author Cantcope Posted May 6, 2010 Author Posted May 6, 2010 WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I'm relieved for you! Have fun tonight. Text me tomorrow. = )
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