nodawg777 Posted May 5, 2010 Posted May 5, 2010 I'm 18 years old, in Highschool, I am a guy and I am very friendly with people but I have no real friends, I don't hang out with anyone outside of school at all. The only person I had in my life was my girlfriend. We have been going out for 3 years and were extremely close. A few years ago I got into a bad habit of asking other girls for naked pictures. I got caught and I stopped for a long time then I started it again and got caught then I stopped for a long time and then recently I got caught again. I know I should have stopped and I ruined everything. I only asked for the pictures because I am so lonely and it made me feel liked and popular and cool. It was a little game that distracted me from the bad stuff in my life. Anyways after getting caught this last time my gf and I took a break but got back together and were working on things. I have always been very closed and selfish and never really opened up to her in the relationship even though I love her. I don't trust people and even though she had proven her love numerous times I didn't want to get hurt. So we were together for about a month and I was really working on being more open and less selfish. She then went away for a week. When she came back she said she wanted a break until the end of school (keep in mind I go to school with 80 people). She said she never really had time to think about what I did to her and she cant trust me or be with me right now. She said she still loves me and could never even consider another guy. All these guys like her and now last night when I'm talking to her on the phone she tells me she might like this other guy, literally less than a week ago she told me that she would never like anyone else. I know we are young but we are both mature so this isn't some game. She really is beginning to like someone else even though she said she wants to end up with me and be with me forever. I am so crushed and am going insane. I love her and she is the only friend I really have. I have no one else to talk to and now not only does she tell me she might have feelings for this other guy after a month! but he likes her too and she does not want us to talk at all for the next month. I go to a school with 80 people and am forced to see her everyday everyone loves her and I have no one to talk to about this. Please give me some advice I know it is all my fault and I am the cause of all of this but she won't even allow me to prove how different I am now. I take full responsibility but I love her and need her, I am already suicidal and this is just pushing me one step closer, the only thing stopping me is I know suicide is a selfish act that would hurt my family and I don't deserve the release it would bring. Please I have no friends and no one to help me. I want to be with her forever but I don't know what to do.
Cantcope Posted May 5, 2010 Posted May 5, 2010 I'm sorry that you're hurt, but she shouldn't trust you. You did it to her multiple times. It really stinks about having no other friends, I understand how it is to let your whole life revolve around someone only to have them disappear. Not to sound rude, but if so many girls were willing to send you naked pictures of themselves, can't you be their friend?
Author nodawg777 Posted May 5, 2010 Author Posted May 5, 2010 they are all my ex's friends now. she forgave them and now they are all friends and also i dont want to upset my ex further by being friends with those girls. I want to be with my ex.
Chochobong Posted May 6, 2010 Posted May 6, 2010 You need to civily cut all contact with your EX. That's tough when your class size is so small, tight knit, and clingy. I know, I had the same situation at a private school back in the day. You need to attempt to make friends at the school and/or outside school. Talk to people, ask them about life and their interests, ask people to do things - friendships should develop naturally thereafter. You screwed up, it sucks, it hurts, but hopefully you've learned your lesson and won't make the same mistakes with your next girl. Focus on you and get your head on straight. You're young and rarely do romantic relationships at that age last you to the end of your life. Focus on the positive and not the negative; it will help quicken your healing. And yes, it's still going to hurt sometimes. Embrace it, cry when you have to, and move on.
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