SummerLady Posted May 5, 2010 Posted May 5, 2010 This has been hard but I have been seeing clearly how I use food to self medicate. Its weird, so like drugs or alcohol. A cookie never solved any of my problems, not one, two or 10. Its odd to sit back- removed from the behavior and see it for what it really is, a weakness to deal with feelings of sadness, frustration or the bumps in the road of life. When I see it for what it really is the fire burns out and the attraction becomes less to do it. No more automatic pilot for me. Its like reviewing someone's else's behavior, what the heck are they doing that for, that won't help? But the someone else is me. I am really making progress and I see it for what it is-a subustitue for feeling any pain or discomfort..Not sure if its awareness or maturity or being responsible but its hold on me is less now then it was yesterday and the day before. And so it goes...
Lauriebell82 Posted May 5, 2010 Posted May 5, 2010 This has been hard but I have been seeing clearly how I use food to self medicate. Its weird, so like drugs or alcohol. A cookie never solved any of my problems, not one, two or 10. Its odd to sit back- removed from the behavior and see it for what it really is, a weakness to deal with feelings of sadness, frustration or the bumps in the road of life. When I see it for what it really is the fire burns out and the attraction becomes less to do it. No more automatic pilot for me. Its like reviewing someone's else's behavior, what the heck are they doing that for, that won't help? But the someone else is me. I am really making progress and I see it for what it is-a subustitue for feeling any pain or discomfort..Not sure if its awareness or maturity or being responsible but its hold on me is less now then it was yesterday and the day before. And so it goes... It's EXACTLY like drugs and alcohol. It's an addiction. Food offers a comfort for some reason, almost like the taste of something sweet will make your worries disappear. It does temporarily until you realize what you've done and then the guilt sets in. I am a recovering binger and I still feel my binge tendencies come on sometimes. I counteract them by remembering how horrible, dangerous, and unhealthy my binging is. I remember how miserable I was being overweight and how I never want to be that way again. That's helps deter me. Congratulations on becoming stronger, its' quite an accomplishment! Keep up the good work.
cuppa Posted May 5, 2010 Posted May 5, 2010 yes, this is what I realized too, esp after what happened to me last yar. Some people use food, some people have gaming online problem (or worst porn), some people smoke, some people addicted to internet or some people turn to alcohol or some people turn to retail therapy or obsessed with celebrity gossip. I used to be workaholic. I turned everything to work (emotion, self actualization, everything). Whatever it is, human needs coping mechanism or an outlet to release emotions. I've since turned my obsession to fitness, workouts, and keep my social calendar active (last year, I barely hanged out with my friends at all). I think if you can find another healthier alternative that provides the same comfort (or at least close) to food, that might be the way to go too. Your body still need coping mechanism, the key is to find it and hopefully, it's healthier on your mind and your body.
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