Emotionally Stuck Now Im Back In Contact With Ex , What Do I Do Now?

[TooMuchPride]

So...Im Stuck

 

Its Really Weird , A Couple of days ago id do anything to get my ex back , including breaking NC to text him , which i did , but it was like as soon as we started talking i started to think rationally , NC is the way to go no doubt but in my situation i went nc 3 weeks den on n off for a couple weeks den nc 2 weeks now back to this and im realizing when im NC...Its bad for me , i think all good things about my ex, forget y we broke up , convince myself he misses me , forget y I ended it(he lied ALOT), and spend all my time hoping and wishing he'll contact me until i end up contacting him...this time was a little different normally he'd be so excited to talk to me and it would appear he really missed me (broke nc like..4 times..lol but not close together) this time he was eager to talk but it didnt seem like he missed me.

 

I felt a relief like talking to him made me go back to normal a bit , a part of me still wants him but when talking to him the other part of me helps me realize why i didnt , after texting a little i said i dont want to bore you so we'll talk later but he said no he wanted to talk about "what used to be us"

 

It went something like:

 

him: What happened with us?

 

me: when i wanted to fix it u wanted that other girl remember?

 

him: long distance is hard feelings fade <---PSSSH.

 

me: hope they still faded when i come home soon

 

him: she liked me and she is here physically and thats what we were missing

 

me: just proves u didnt love me

 

him: if u were here we'd stil b together

 

me: you knew what u were getting into , you wanted it :| , do you love her?

 

him: no i like her alot , do u like any1 , u still having feelings for me?

 

me: yes i got feelings for u , not really, do u love me? dont lie u can b honest

 

him: yes i do , my feelings for you are strong kinda , but i think about u alot tho (THIS SOUNDED LIKE A NO TO ME, simple cause he sed "kinda")

 

anyways convo ended..(not really what was said the basic point though)

 

i did my research n i found out he has been messing with a million girls , talking to a ton, messing with their heads , proving that the girl he claims he likes doesn't mean that much , and neither do I...at this point i want to keep contact because NC isnt helping me make progress i know the chance is i could end up hurt..ill either end up wanting him more or wanting him less , i dont know...

 

what should i do..i dont know if i want him back but even if i do dont think he feels the same...either way i think he is playing with my emotions how do i stay on top of that? and make sure i dont get hurt..

 

seems like its a power trip as long as he think i care he is good.

[LucreziaBorgia]

he has been messing with a million girls , talking to a ton, messing with their heads , proving that the girl he claims he likes doesn't mean that much , and neither do I

 

I'm not sure what the appeal is at this point. He told you point blank that you weren't worth the distance between you, and you find this out about him.

 

I'm not certain what it is you are expecting by 'being back' with him. I hope that regardless of whether you maintain contact or not you will be able to see this clearly for what it is and not what you are wishing it would be.

[Arabella]

This guy sounds like my ex. Heck, he could be my ex. Does his name start with an S? lol.

 

I've seen it before. He wants to know you're still hung up on him, that's why he keeps bringing up your past relationship, and why he keeps giving you noncommittal answers about his feelings.

 

I don't see the point in keeping in touch with him other than to get him back. If you don't want him back, then don't speak to him at all because all you're doing is giving him an ego boost. Does he even deserve that after he clearly said you weren't worth the effort to him? I think not.

 

Arabella