doogness Posted May 2, 2010 Posted May 2, 2010 Well it all started when i met this amazing woman in january. We were such a good match and from the beginning she said she was still talking to her ex. She explained everything. Apparently they were dating for three years and was expecting a proposal....Well one day he said he needed space and started seeing another woman..well she found out he was actually talking to this woman while they were together. Well he was trying to get back into her life before she met me. Well she met me and the sparks flew...her friends were all on my side! They said she would glow when she talked about me and she was extremely happy. I live in Ct and she lives in long island so that was the only thing in the way and it wasnt that hard to get around. She would always tell me how much better she got along with me than her ex. It was simply amazing. Maybe this is TMI but even the sex was amazing...her friend told me she said it was the best she ever had....no kidding. Now I knew i wasnt in a good position because i was playing the secret boyfriend...Her ex had no idea about me and she was continuing to talk to him. We were seeing eachother for 3 months like this and she was having a very hard time letting go of this guy. Well about 2 weeks ago she had decided she needs to tell him she cant talk to him anymore and that she wants to start seeing me as often as possible. This was on a monday...so we set up a night i would visit her and cook her dinner that thursday...Well by wednesday we were talking and i mentioned some pictures our friend took of an earlier event i said how great they look, and she said hers turned out great too. As soon as she had them on her computer she would email them to me. Well i asked her wasnt going to put them up on facebook (it was from the navy submarine ball and the pictures are fantastic. She said she is just not gonna do that...and i had to be a smart ass and say "we wouldnt want dave to see." (her ex). Well i think it made her feel horrible...she said she cant keep hurting me like this and she isnt ready to let go of him...she needs time to not be with anyone...even though she continually hangs out with him. So we both decide were still going to do dinner and it went well...a bit wierd at first but it went rather well. SO she is dropping me off at the ferry and we start making out...we talked alot and decided we want to remain friends but we wont talk for a while. She told me it is so hard to let go of all the things that come with him and if he wasnt in the picture i would have been so great for her...i have so much to offfer...shes so comfortable with me..blah blah blah. She says if we ever had another chance in the future and things werent so complicated with her she wouldnt give it a second thought. So it has been a little over a week since we talked...i havent called or texted and she sends me a friendly little email saying this news article reminded her of me. So i replied back with this.... Heya, Its really nice hearing from you again. Actually everything is coming together very nicely and I found out friday they are going to give me 20 grand since they are forcing me out!!! which is pretty exciting. I also have a few prospective jobs already lined up and they are exactly the jobs I would be comfortable with. So ive been doing pretty good. Ive been more worried about you...the last two weeks of school and all must be very stressful! Im sure youre pulling your hair out lol. Yeah I about the smoking ban....as if submariner retention wasnt bad enough...those guys live to smoke cigarettes! haha. I am so glad I am finally free of that habit. I really hope you are doing well and still showing off that beautiful smile every day Even if Im not able to make you smile all of the time it would make me happy to know you are anyways I would like to wish you goodluck with the little bit of school you have left and I know you will do magnificent on your finals. I miss you excruciatingly lol and ill talk to you soon. Always yours, Doug E. Fresh P.S. Youre not the only one! Not like I dont remind myself of you all of you all of the time but everytime I see a legacy it reminds me of you. There are ton of em around here too! ....Now I think i ****ed up....I cant let her know i am on the back burner and i think i did.....thats even if i have another chance....i know i need to move on but its hard especially since things were so good. I feel like he was her comfort zone and she was afraid to take the step. Do you guys think i will have another opportunity? Like i said I dont call or text....i try to play the field and move on for now but it makes it oh so hard when i think about her all of the time and it just seems like no other woman can compare right now. Did my email convey a message i dont want? Im confused and even though i know what i need to do I would still like some feedback on this situation and hear some different outlooks. im still functioning and life is great but im driving myself crazy thinking about her. I really appreciate whoever takes the time to read my incredibly long message and thank you.
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