jayzaround Posted May 1, 2010 Posted May 1, 2010 Hello all, I was in a year long relationship with a french girl that I met from work and it all ended with a big row in february, now I'm feeling the agony of the breakup and finding it hard to cope. We started to chat at work on e mail and it soon became apparent I'd met someone I clicked with. We started to date, and my manager voiced his concerns, but 3 months later we rented a flat together and our relationship blossomed into an exciting whirlwind romance. She didn't have a car so we went everywhere together. The problem was we worked, lived and went out together all the time, and although the chemistry was fantastic, it started to suffocate us both. We are both fire signs, she's a sagitarrius and I'm an aries and so we started to bicker. Just before christmas we had a big argument and we didn't speak to eachother for a week, she said she wanted to go back to france and my heart nearly broke, I tried everything to change her mind and eventually after a week she backed down and said we both needed to change our ways. In february I bought a new flat, we were both excited and couldn't wait to move in. This was the beginning of the end, again as we spent so much time together between doing up the flat and working together, we started to argue and after 2 weeks in the flat we had a massive row, both said some horrible things and I asked her to move out. A few days later she came to the flat to get all of her stuff and moved into my managers house with his wife who was very fond of her. She didn't speak to me for weeks at work, and when she did she was full of rage. I tried to avoid her as much as possible. I decided to go onto a dating site in march as I felt so hurt by the loss. I'd tried to see if we could reconcile twice, but she said she no longer trusted me and couldn't cope with the relationship. I respected her decision and so backed off and started to date other women. She asked me if I was dating others and so I was honest. I met a girl and went on a few dates, started to feel more upbeat, then one evening my ex sent me a text saying I'd treated her terribly when we broke up and she was disgusted that shed been wiped aside for another woman. I tried to reassure her that I just wanted to get over the pain but it was her who did not want to reconcile so I didn't feel I was doing wrong? Anyway the dates did not make me feel better so I gave up with this woman and have since been out on casual dates with other women, but all I can do is think of her and I feel destroyed inside. At work she would keep sending me e mails talking about the past and how she felt about the breakup but she came across as quite smug and happy it was over. She handed in her resignation a month ago and yesterday was her last day at work. She was so bitter towards me over last month, one minute shed have a laugh and a joke, the next shed lay into me about how callous I am. Last weekend she met a guy in town, she told me all about it on the monday, then saw him again thursday and again last night for her leaving do (which I did not go to). She went in to great detail to tell me about how fantastic this guy is, and her parting words were "I almost don't want to see this guy again tonight, as he is so wonderful, I'm worried I might miss him like mad when I leave. when she said this it was like an ice pivk through my heart! She's already in love with another man after 2 months? Does this mean she never really loved me? Even yesterday afternoon she was still insulting me, and I said to her "if you like this new guy, why do you still lay into me so much?" She replied "I'm hurt and betrayed by you, I just wish I'd met this guy along time ago". I'm happier to know that I won't see her anymore, as being around her at work this last month has kept reopening the wound, but I feel in complete despair to know she may already be in love with this new guy. Can anyone tell me how to cope with the emptiness I feel inside? Thanks for reading
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