Perhaps Posted April 29, 2010 Posted April 29, 2010 Hey all, it's been a while since I visited the forums... exams and all. I've been feeling better day by day... true to the advice given by everyone here - it does get easier over time... well, it was getting easier but here I am, trembling as I type this.. I don't know why I start shaking but anyway, so she called me one day and I had my headphones in my ears so i picked up thinking it was my dad. Turns out, it was her and I ddn't want to be rude so I didn't get off. She ended up telling me she has a job and I polietely told her I can't be friends with her. She started crying, blaming me. I ended up "explaining" why i can't talk to her as just friends... it's cause i still have feelin.. and before I could finish, "I have a boyfriend now". I just st there quietly for a good minute, speechless. It's the same guy who was "just a friend" a few months back. This was a month ago. She hasn't talked to me on msn last year. Today, she calls me. I ignore it. then, i see a message on my msn from her. I replied saying "yes?" and after waiting for her response for a few seconds, I typed in "its best if you stop contacting me" and i blocked and deleted her - till now, i had her deleted so she could contact me if anything. what does she want? she got her apology, she led me on for months, she abused me. she has a job now and a boyfriend in an ivy league school. Why can't she just stop calling me? wasn't a year of being her little b**** enough for her? i've told her hundreds of times nicely why i cant talk to her. she ends up crying, blaming me. and when i do talk to her, i dont know how she does it, she comes off as really sincere and genuine and it makes me feel like a jackass. but im tried of it. i cant keep doing this? does she just LIKE rubbing it in my face? cause she sure sounds like she has no ulterior motives. or maybe it's me. i'm the idiot who still thinks she's an innocent girl. I've blocked her from msn and i just want to put it all behind me. but I can't if she keeps contacting me... if I pick up, it hurts me and i end up hurting her cause i cant be her friend. And if I don't pick up, i end up coming off as a jackass. she didn't call me or see how I was doing when she left me for dead cause she was "confused". I would never wish ill fate on anyone but I'd love to know she misses me and it was her fault after I gave her my everything to fix it. I want to forget her but i cannot forgive her. Maybe I'll forgive her the day I forget her.
CarrieT Posted April 29, 2010 Posted April 29, 2010 And if I don't pick up, i end up coming off as a jackass. You've moved on so don't concern yourself with how you are "coming off." Why do you care how you look if you know you did the right thing for you? She has a boyfriend and you are moving on and healing. Don't worry about how it all looks. Just maintain NC.
Author Perhaps Posted April 29, 2010 Author Posted April 29, 2010 I understand that but I just feel so bad... every time she has called, I ask myself, "What if it's an emergency?" I just feel bad not answering... cause it makes me think of some innocent girl who never really existed. My friends says she calls only when - she's bored - she needs someone who will listen to her problems - she has some "Ha!, in your face" news
yume Posted April 29, 2010 Posted April 29, 2010 every time she has called, I ask myself, "What if it's an emergency?" If it's an emergency and you don't answer the first call, I'm pretty sure she/they would keep calling until you picked up, or at least leave a voicemail. It's hard to ignore anyone, ex or not, but you're in a good place now mentally so don't let her ruin that for you.
ukguy1985 Posted April 29, 2010 Posted April 29, 2010 change your number or if your supplier can ask for it to be blocked
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