EthanH Posted April 27, 2010 Posted April 27, 2010 I'm not stupid. I have had break-ups before. BUT, when i think about what would make me happy. The ultimate ambitions I have always had. The places I have wanted to visit. Having money (although that is only for personal ambition points as my family is fairly well off) Meeting the people I have always wanted to meet. Learning things I have always wanted to learn. When I think of all of that, it all seems irrelevant... even the things I dreamed of, the things I have dreamed about all my life, they just seem unimportant now...and if they fell into my lap, right now, it might bring me temporary happiness... but all I want is her... I mean, that is depression, right? I don't want to take medication, as it is a thing which has come about because of an event, although people have said it must have been there before, and so, say I take something, I might be dosed up for a while, but eventually i would have to come off it, and then deal with reality. And I don't agree with counsellors, I'm a brit, so I'm sceptical, but I have tried them, and all I did was speak to them, and they didn't really say much back... I hate just sitting here, but I don't want to do anything, as nothing will make me happy, so i have no motivation to do it...
JustWantAHug Posted April 29, 2010 Posted April 29, 2010 This is the story of my life... I have ZERO motivation. Im convinced i have a medical depression issue... its sad...
Author EthanH Posted April 29, 2010 Author Posted April 29, 2010 this isn't the norm for me. I have never been like this. I have had break-ups and they were difficult, but nothing like this. And it wasn't even the fact that we broke up which has caused this, the first time we broke up, i threw myself headlong into my ambitions/socialising with friends etc etc, it is since we 'got back' momentarily, it has totally messed my mind up...I miss her so much
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