TachyonGeist Posted April 27, 2010 Posted April 27, 2010 Guys I'm having such a hard time with this break up.....I can't stop crying....I miss her so much. Her kiss, her touch, the sound of her voice. Nothing is making me happy...being around friends, working out, World of Warcraft (what used to be my favorite hobby) nothing. I went out with my bros yesterday to party and hang out and I just started bawling uncontrollably in front of all of them. I've never felt this defeated in my entire life...and the hardest part is I have Cerebral Palsy, so it's not easy for me to get out of the house on my own. So a lot of times I just sit at home and simmer to myself, I know this is not healthy but I can't help it. I've been NC for about two weeks and she's contacted me several times to see if I'm ok, my entire family thinks I'm going to commit suicide. And I won't lie, I have thought about it, but then I think most everyone does at some point. She says I need professional help, which I probably do, but again, hard to leave. Every night when I go to sleep and dream about her I wake up crying....I just want to be happy again, I want to feel like I'm not dying inside...she also said that she "still loves me but not in the same way" which only makes it worse.....please help guys....pray for me, anything....i just want this to stop...
cp3_panda Posted April 27, 2010 Posted April 27, 2010 it sucks man.. I understnad how you feel.. I've been on NC for 26 days and I feel great now. I guess theres nothing I could possibly say to make you feel better in the beginning. It hurts and its going to hurt. But a lot of people just told me that time will heal and that I should think less about it. I felt that the MORE i thought about it, the more I could overcome and get over it. It got to the point where I could view our relationship objectively (~3weeks). And now, on day 26, I feel like I am completely over her. I think of her without missing her. I think of our memories without getting sad. In a way, I feel so much more free and so much happier because I am independent now. Keep in my mind, my relationship was 4 years. AND i was cheated on. But now almost a month has passed, and I realized my life is so much better without her. I know you cant see the light at the end of the tunnel now. But you will. I promise.
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