Never mind.. MM just texted me to break it off AGAIN...

[I Miss the Kiss]

I will drop a five on FOUR DAYS. That is part of the game they play, he changes his number, she does not, he contacts her again, pop goes the weasel (they have sex), he dumps her again goes back to the wife, pop goes the weasel (they have sex ), he dumps the wife to be "on his own" (or the wife boots him out), he calls OP ... just thinking about it gets exhausting...

 

It IS exhausting. The only part that you're off a bit is that we have sex. That happens rarely due to our distance. Nonetheless, we kind of have a mental "sex", if you will. Not phone sex, not even talk of sex, but just that kind of deep conversation and bond where it feels almost like being intimate.

 

Four days? I'm looking at more like 14. Maybe I will change my number this time. I don't think I want to win or lose any bets on this. I just want it to stop.

[Confused4Now]

It IS exhausting. The only part that you're off a bit is that we have sex. That happens rarely due to our distance. Nonetheless, we kind of have a mental "sex", if you will. Not phone sex, not even talk of sex, but just that kind of deep conversation and bond where it feels almost like being intimate.

 

Four days? I'm looking at more like 14. Maybe I will change my number this time. I don't think I want to win or lose any bets on this. I just want it to stop.

Really? don't change your number.....I did that and it didn't work. You have to be ready or it won't work. You have to be able to see that number come in and you looking at it and not answer the phone. Why are you going to change your number for this stoopid fool. I regret it....I had a number for like 12 years...and just like that it was gone. YOU HAVE TO BE READY or it won't work.

[seren]

I have nothing to add to what others have told you. As in all things, especially relationships, be true to yourself, look at what you want from a healthy, loving relationship and stick to it.

 

This man sounds like he doesn't know his arse from his elbow and is very, me, me, me. I'll bet neither you nor his W have a clue as to what he really wants, means or intends. I just hope you don't start looking for something you could have, should have or might have done differently to make it OK. people like him are just out for themselves and while I am not saying that while he was with you that he didn't care, he just didn't care enough, other than for himself.

 

Take very good care of yourself.

[tami-chan]

So change your number. Have good cry. Buy a pair of beautiful stiletto shoes. Go to the spa. Do something decadent but not destructive for yourself. Cry some more. Remember, everything has an expiration date, yes, even how you feel about him and how you feel right now. Do not ask those "what if" questions about him or your relationship with him, they are pointless. Take care of yourself.

[I Miss the Kiss]

Really? don't change your number.....I did that and it didn't work. You have to be ready or it won't work. You have to be able to see that number come in and you looking at it and not answer the phone. Why are you going to change your number for this stoopid fool. I regret it....I had a number for like 12 years...and just like that it was gone. YOU HAVE TO BE READY or it won't work.

 

He changes numbers like he changes underwear (which is appropriately sarcastic in that he just stood in my bedroom about 36 hours ago and changed his underwear... GROSS, I know, but true).

 

I am not of the mindset to change mine either. F him!! Why should I have to tell people I have a new number when he's the ass who caused this heartache. I am just NOW to the point where I truly think I can watch that phone ring and let it go. I know you have all heard me say that, but if you could see me right now.... you would know. FINALLY I am SO PI$$ED OFF. Slimy M-F'er just took what he wanted (although I was willing) and left me hurting.

 

I've done this enough. I have some amazing new friends (one happens to be a guy) who are listening and being so helpful to me. I didn't have that before. My guy friend just came by my work to tell me how much better I deserve and how he (MM) will be the one who hurts in the end, because he will still be a F'd up man, and I will pick up and be better for this.

 

I just hope he DOES try to call someday. And instead of a changed number (which he might never really know why it was changed), I would rather he just get ring after ring and voicemail, with NEVER a return call from me. I CAN DO THAT. I am so freaking mad right now I can't see straight. I am not crying, don't even feel like it. He is a messed up, sadistic, cruel man disguised as caring and kind. He told me this weekend "I just don't like to be the one who hurts someone... even you!"

 

Ummmm..... HELLO??!! Break up by a text, change you number like a school boy? Have 24 hours of sex and then treat that woman like this?!

 

Yeah, what a caring guy.

 

I'm done. SO DONE. And soon I will be the one on LS who has advice and helps people like me. I never thought I would be that person, but I will.

 

If I could scream his name and post his picture here I would do it, just to warn the world of this man and what he can do to someone (especially someone who truly loved him and wanted him to be happy, like me).

 

AHHHHHH rant over.

[bentnotbroken]

He changes numbers like he changes underwear (which is appropriately sarcastic in that he just stood in my bedroom about 36 hours ago and changed his underwear... GROSS, I know, but true).

 

I am not of the mindset to change mine either. F him!! Why should I have to tell people I have a new number when he's the ass who caused this heartache. I am just NOW to the point where I truly think I can watch that phone ring and let it go. I know you have all heard me say that, but if you could see me right now.... you would know. FINALLY I am SO PI$$ED OFF. Slimy M-F'er just took what he wanted (although I was willing) and left me hurting.

 

I've done this enough. I have some amazing new friends (one happens to be a guy) who are listening and being so helpful to me. I didn't have that before. My guy friend just came by my work to tell me how much better I deserve and how he (MM) will be the one who hurts in the end, because he will still be a F'd up man, and I will pick up and be better for this.

 

I just hope he DOES try to call someday. And instead of a changed number (which he might never really know why it was changed), I would rather he just get ring after ring and voicemail, with NEVER a return call from me. I CAN DO THAT. I am so freaking mad right now I can't see straight. I am not crying, don't even feel like it. He is a messed up, sadistic, cruel man disguised as caring and kind. He told me this weekend "I just don't like to be the one who hurts someone... even you!"

 

Ummmm..... HELLO??!! Break up by a text, change you number like a school boy? Have 24 hours of sex and then treat that woman like this?!

 

Yeah, what a caring guy.

 

I'm done. SO DONE. And soon I will be the one on LS who has advice and helps people like me. I never thought I would be that person, but I will.

 

If I could scream his name and post his picture here I would do it, just to warn the world of this man and what he can do to someone (especially someone who truly loved him and wanted him to be happy, like me).

 

AHHHHHH rant over.

 

 

And the cycle continues to spin as much out of control as ever. No adults here willing to end it. We like the drama and the attention it garners from the co conspirator.

[Hazyhead]

Why put yourself through this? He will be back, because he always is as you let him, just as his wife does, and the merry-go-round continues. IMTK, you have to change this. YOU. He isn't going to; why would he? He has sex and an escape route for when he needs it and his wife for when she'll take him.

 

It's insane and if it carries on you will be too.

 

Please don't put yourself through this again.

[tami-chan]

And the cycle continues to spin as much out of control as ever. No adults here willing to end it. We like the drama and the attention it garners from the co conspirator.

 

 

What is this? what is the point to this? what is the relevance of this comment to the OP?

[bananalaffytaffy]

Not speaking for Bent, but the OP said in her post she was done, and then said she hoped MM would call so he she couldn't answer. I applaud the baby steps, but that's not ending it and moving on. That's waiting for more drama.

Maybe in time she'll get to where she won't wait/expect/hope for a call.

[bittersweet memories]

He changes numbers like he changes underwear (which is appropriately sarcastic in that he just stood in my bedroom about 36 hours ago and changed his underwear... GROSS, I know, but true).

 

I am not of the mindset to change mine either. F him!! Why should I have to tell people I have a new number when he's the ass who caused this heartache. I am just NOW to the point where I truly think I can watch that phone ring and let it go. I know you have all heard me say that, but if you could see me right now.... you would know. FINALLY I am SO PI$$ED OFF. Slimy M-F'er just took what he wanted (although I was willing) and left me hurting.

 

I've done this enough. I have some amazing new friends (one happens to be a guy) who are listening and being so helpful to me. I didn't have that before. My guy friend just came by my work to tell me how much better I deserve and how he (MM) will be the one who hurts in the end, because he will still be a F'd up man, and I will pick up and be better for this.

 

I just hope he DOES try to call someday. And instead of a changed number (which he might never really know why it was changed), I would rather he just get ring after ring and voicemail, with NEVER a return call from me. I CAN DO THAT. I am so freaking mad right now I can't see straight. I am not crying, don't even feel like it. He is a messed up, sadistic, cruel man disguised as caring and kind. He told me this weekend "I just don't like to be the one who hurts someone... even you!"

 

Ummmm..... HELLO??!! Break up by a text, change you number like a school boy? Have 24 hours of sex and then treat that woman like this?!

 

Yeah, what a caring guy.

 

I'm done. SO DONE. And soon I will be the one on LS who has advice and helps people like me. I never thought I would be that person, but I will.

 

If I could scream his name and post his picture here I would do it, just to warn the world of this man and what he can do to someone (especially someone who truly loved him and wanted him to be happy, like me).

 

AHHHHHH rant over.

 

May I ask..What makes this time different from the others? It's like

Déjà vu.

[dreamingoftigers]

You have surrendered an awful lot of control to this individual. It sounds like you are a victim and are not trying to actually help yourself.

 

If it was me I would not hope to see him call so that I could not answer to assert my own power. I would hope that this individual would not call again so that I wouldn't have to expend any more mental energy on him.

 

I would look into ways to re-assert power in your own life.

 

And get your quilt back.

[whichwayisup]

EVERY TIME he has freaked out the next day and gone crawling back. I do wonder if she's had enough.

 

Who cares whether or not she's had enough. HAVE YOU? Stop wondering what is going on inside her head, or his, focus on YOU only.

 

Yes, I just read that you say you've had enough. You're mad, upset, pissed off, fed up. But, in afew days when you calm down, start to miss him, if/when he calls you, will you have the strength to not answer the phone? Or call him back? It's so easy for you now to say this stuff because you're mad.

 

I hope you mean it this time and stick with NC.

 

NC means - Healing you. It has NOTHING to do with punishing him, or hoping it'll have whatever affect on him. NC has to be about you!

[Fallen Angel]

Who cares whether or not she's had enough. HAVE YOU? Stop wondering what is going on inside her head, or his, focus on YOU only.

 

Yes, I just read that you say you've had enough. You're mad, upset, pissed off, fed up. But, in afew days when you calm down, start to miss him, if/when he calls you, will you have the strength to not answer the phone? Or call him back? It's so easy for you now to say this stuff because you're mad.

 

I hope you mean it this time and stick with NC.

 

NC means - Healing you. It has NOTHING to do with punishing him, or hoping it'll have whatever affect on him. NC has to be about you!

 

That is the point I was trying to get to IMTK.. You always say that it is over for you, but you really do not believe it anymore than I believe it. Yes, right now you are angry. Yes, right now you are hurt. He knows this, which is why he changed his number (again) because it takes away your ability to direct that anger at him. Right now, he doesn't have to feel that anger because you can't call him up and tell him what a complete assclown he is.

 

But, a few days will pass.. you will start to miss him, and your anger will subside as your loneliness increases. He knows this, it is the dance that you and he and she have performed time and again. Just about the time that your loneliness begins to turn to despair, he will call. There will be some residual anger from you, but by then you will be so grateful that he is contacting you, that you will either gloss over that residual anger, hardly saying anything about it, or you will say nothing at all about it, because you will be afraid to "run him off" with your anger.

 

*sigh*

 

He knows how you work, he knows how to make your emotional cycles work for him.

[I Miss the Kiss]

May I ask..What makes this time different from the others? It's like

Déjà vu.

 

Ya, I can see why you would say that. I guess this is the last bit of humiliation I can face. Its almost good that he did this right after a sex romp. It makes me madder, more disgusted, and ready to end this circle of lies.

 

I also have an old friend (girlfriend) back in my life recently and she is spittin mad (she met MM thisd past weekend and he had her fooled as well... she thought he was so sweet and kind; he even carried her twin sister for 3 blocks because her foot was hurting from a surgery and she had worn uncomfortable shoes)

 

So I have support, and I intend to use it

[katiecox]

 

More sex.

 

He worked yesterday, so only a phone call last night that ended with him saying "I love you Peanut... have a good night!"

 

This morning when I get to work this text: "I can't do this. I'm going back to try to make my marriage work. I'm sorry. Go love someone who deserves you. Goodbye."

 

 

 

OMG!! I faced almost the same scenario! 2 days of heaven then he texts me, "I can't see you anymore. I am going to work it out with my wife. We can't be friends. I lose myself in you. She is here with the whole family and the priest who married us."

 

A f*cking text. Can you believe it? I asked him to break it off so many friggin times before that, but he has to raise my hopes SKY HIGH and then drop me off? Why couldn't he end it on normal terms before all this sex and promises? I can't help thinking that he was totally using me!

 

In my mind, I'm thinking, is this a disgusting prank to use me for the last time and then drop me off with no remorse? This is complete BULLSH*T!!!!!

 

And people wonder why I respond in anger.

[jj33]

Big hugs I know how much it hurts.

 

The thing is it WILL be more of this until you tell him BE GONE and stay gone until you have filed for divorce.

 

And then dont see him until he has done the deed. And if he calls first words are "have you filed for divorce? If not hang up and say dont call back until you do.

 

Hes confused and he isnt working it out.

 

I went through something similar and its a never ending vicious cycle until you tell him NO. I dont want to see you I dont want to hear from you until you have news.

 

Its painful but no more painful than the vicious circle you are living now

[jthorne]

That is the point I was trying to get to IMTK.. You always say that it is over for you, but you really do not believe it anymore than I believe it. Yes, right now you are angry. Yes, right now you are hurt. He knows this, which is why he changed his number (again) because it takes away your ability to direct that anger at him. Right now, he doesn't have to feel that anger because you can't call him up and tell him what a complete assclown he is.

 

But, a few days will pass.. you will start to miss him, and your anger will subside as your loneliness increases. He knows this, it is the dance that you and he and she have performed time and again. Just about the time that your loneliness begins to turn to despair, he will call. There will be some residual anger from you, but by then you will be so grateful that he is contacting you, that you will either gloss over that residual anger, hardly saying anything about it, or you will say nothing at all about it, because you will be afraid to "run him off" with your anger.

 

*sigh*

 

He knows how you work, he knows how to make your emotional cycles work for him.

FA- reading this reminded me of that story you told about your niece- about the sh*t and the perfume?

[jj33]

IMTK, Fallen Angel is right. But you know the game now. SO when you do find yourself forgving him for it all, remember that if you dont want more of the same, you need to respond differently.

 

So what if he does something or says soemthing - hes still married and hes still not ready to have a life with you which is what you want

 

Every little trick he pulls now is just another way of him saying Im still with my wife. Dont read anything more into it

[pureinheart]

Hi IMTK,

 

Hey, hang in there. No matter what happens keep posting as it is helping. All of this stuff is getting on your last nerve and you are sick of it. All that needs to happen is that your head and heart need to line up and that IS happening.

 

Each time we hope it will be different and JW is right on the money...we are talking Divine Intervention. Don't beat yourself up with the self talk of "oh I'm just this that and the other"...you made a mistake, and guess what, it won't be the last in your life....life is a series of mistakes, and you might make the same mistake a whole bunch of times...guess what...IT'S OK.

 

I think it is way cool that most in this forum DO have your best interests at heart...it's just soooooo hard to understand what causes us to KEEP going back time and time again...each time we don't even understand WHY we do it.

 

I had NEVER been this way until exDM, and for the record, it WASN'T because he was M'ed. It's some sort of strange hold that my councellors are trying to work on with me. I pray constantly.

 

Don't get me wrong it is ME, I am the problem....but, WHY.

 

Ok, let's break this down...instead of bashing MM, let's look at us and see what we can do different...MM's issues are simple...he's confused and doesnot know what he wants and in this process is creating drama...ok, you have the power to stop the drama.

 

For me, I was swinging from one side to the other JUST LIKE EXDM...you CAN get off the roller coaster, I did and I was worse than you ever thought of being or MM for that matter.

 

Only you know your sitch...with both of you taking him back, he is caught up in this cycle of "back and forth", flip flopping as some call it...it's almost like he is screaming for one of you to take a stand.

 

IMTK...you know what you what and what you don't want...he doesn't, you might need to take the upper hand...the power IS within you...go for it girl...you can do it...

[I Miss the Kiss]

OMG!! I faced almost the same scenario! 2 days of heaven then he texts me, "I can't see you anymore. I am going to work it out with my wife. We can't be friends. I lose myself in you. She is here with the whole family and the priest who married us."

 

A f*cking text. Can you believe it? I asked him to break it off so many friggin times before that, but he has to raise my hopes SKY HIGH and then drop me off? Why couldn't he end it on normal terms before all this sex and promises? I can't help thinking that he was totally using me!

 

In my mind, I'm thinking, is this a disgusting prank to use me for the last time and then drop me off with no remorse? This is complete BULLSH*T!!!!!

 

And people wonder why I respond in anger.

 

Oh I hear ya! I know we are all ultimately responsible for ourselves, but we are human, and we have emotions. When people play with those emotions, it becomes so hard to see how bad it is for us until its too late.

 

I loved this man. Real complete and total love. He wsa my soul mate in every way that I thought mattered. Except the part where he didn't give me enough respect to TELL ME either when he was in my bed or before he left that he was going to chicken out again. THAT is not love.

 

He's F'd with me enough. Summer is coming and I refuse to waste it on him while he's up in his lakeshore town, tooling around in his new boat that I never got to set foot on last year (oops, wait... there was that one morning at 5 a.m. when he F'd me on his boat, right after he drove me past the house where his W was sleeping).

 

I hope & pray he gets help, and I've been trying to be the one to help him, which was wrong anyway. He will beg his W's forgiveness again, and if he has a shred of luck she MIGHT even speak to him after having just spent the weekend with me. Then the whole cycle will start with them again. She won't trust him, he gets testy and tired of being watched. He remembers how easy I was to get along with, how passionate we were... then he tries me again..

 

I'm done.

 

Quite honestly I feel nauseous at the thought of being anywhere near naked with that man again! And trust me I NEVER thought I would say that. EVER. I was obsessed with his body, how we were together.

 

This weekend he had a bit of a "problem" once or twice. Hmmmmm..... guilty conscience, perhaps?! Trust me, that was not the best sex we've had. BLAH

 

Anyway, my point is that for the first time in a year, I feel true disdain for him after being so used. I know it seems obvious to all of you, but I do truly see his sickness now. He was bragging to me about the text his wife sent, telling him not to call. He was laughing it off, saying "Why would I call when she filed papers anyway?" I wonder how he'll explain my grandma's quilt? He doesn't live with her, so he'll probably destroy it before she ever sees it, which breaks my heart Why in the frick did he even take it with him?????

 

Seriously, the last 72 hours are an absolute blur to me. If I had the time and space to tell you everything he said and did, your head would be spinning too.

[I Miss the Kiss]

Hi IMTK,

 

Hey, hang in there. No matter what happens keep posting as it is helping. All of this stuff is getting on your last nerve and you are sick of it. All that needs to happen is that your head and heart need to line up and that IS happening.

 

Each time we hope it will be different and JW is right on the money...we are talking Divine Intervention. Don't beat yourself up with the self talk of "oh I'm just this that and the other"...you made a mistake, and guess what, it won't be the last in your life....life is a series of mistakes, and you might make the same mistake a whole bunch of times...guess what...IT'S OK.

 

I think it is way cool that most in this forum DO have your best interests at heart...it's just soooooo hard to understand what causes us to KEEP going back time and time again...each time we don't even understand WHY we do it.

 

I had NEVER been this way until exDM, and for the record, it WASN'T because he was M'ed. It's some sort of strange hold that my councellors are trying to work on with me. I pray constantly.

 

Don't get me wrong it is ME, I am the problem....but, WHY.

 

Ok, let's break this down...instead of bashing MM, let's look at us and see what we can do different...MM's issues are simple...he's confused and doesnot know what he wants and in this process is creating drama...ok, you have the power to stop the drama.

 

For me, I was swinging from one side to the other JUST LIKE EXDM...you CAN get off the roller coaster, I did and I was worse than you ever thought of being or MM for that matter.

 

Only you know your sitch...with both of you taking him back, he is caught up in this cycle of "back and forth", flip flopping as some call it...it's almost like he is screaming for one of you to take a stand.

 

IMTK...you know what you what and what you don't want...he doesn't, you might need to take the upper hand...the power IS within you...go for it girl...you can do it...

 

Sadly, his W did finally take a stand and filed (at his urging, because of course he couldn't or wouldn't do it and admitted as much to me). However, her filing just sent him on the backswing back to her. I don't know what will happen with that.

 

Its weird because I have sat in this very chair so MANY times thinking there is NO WAY I will ever hear from him again. And I always do. But this times feels different. Maybe its because I know I won't be contacting him (can't) or that he must be scared sh*tless because his W actually filed.

 

If she's smart, she will let the 6-month waiting period tick away (it only started a few days ago). She will make him work his ass off for s long as it takes, but not pull back on the divorce. She would be stupid to stop it all in its tracks after all he's done to her (which coincides exactly with what he's done to me... a literal mirror).

 

Ugh I feel so sick

[pureinheart]

OMG!! I faced almost the same scenario! 2 days of heaven then he texts me, "I can't see you anymore. I am going to work it out with my wife. We can't be friends. I lose myself in you. She is here with the whole family and the priest who married us."

 

A f*cking text. Can you believe it? I asked him to break it off so many friggin times before that, but he has to raise my hopes SKY HIGH and then drop me off? Why couldn't he end it on normal terms before all this sex and promises? I can't help thinking that he was totally using me!

 

In my mind, I'm thinking, is this a disgusting prank to use me for the last time and then drop me off with no remorse? This is complete BULLSH*T!!!!!

 

And people wonder why I respond in anger.

 

Well, this might ease your mind about being used ....exDM was like this without any sex...although I do think the sex causes them to really feel guilty...

 

All the same, this doesnot help how you feel and your anger should be validated...they simply don't know what they want...you do, go for it.

 

Hey and ya know what...being alone has it's excellent points also...it gives you the room to be you and let the right one find you...hey I love thrift stores, so that is what gets me out...I get hit on all of the time...I am ready for the right one to find me

 

Man you guys, I just had a thought...we don't have it as bad as we think...we are single and ready...they are not...we have the upper hand...don't worry, be happy!

[katiecox]

OMG! I totally feel you.. I can't believe the same thing is happening to us both at the same time.

 

You said he f*ked you after driving past his wife's house.. he f*ked me in his wife's house when she's out! He let me in to sleep over when she goes to visit her mom! Talk about 2-timing!

 

And the same thing with hoping he doesn't call.. He always does! Or emails or texts or something stupid and he always says the right thing that would make me stay!! I always think he's being genuine, but at the same time, I have a very skeptical personality and I always double check his words with his actions, where he says he is, what he does, etc. I ask questions again and again, sometimes from different angles, hoping he would make a mistake, but he never does! Makes me feel like he is for real! I make all these hoops for him to jump through, and he always does it all..

 

Now I just want to bash all the lies back into his head. Make him understand what HURT feels like. Don't f*cking cry crocodile tears at me; I WILL make him shed real ones and feel them too.

[Fallen Angel]

Only you know your sitch...with both of you taking him back, he is caught up in this cycle of "back and forth", flip flopping as some call it...it's almost like he is screaming for one of you to take a stand.

 

THIS!!! THIS IS IT RIGHT HERE!!!

 

He does not want to be responsible. Period. not for what happenes to you, not for what happens to his wife, not even for what happens to himself. So he plays this damnedable ping-pong game with everyone's lives until ONE OF YOU (OW/BW) make the choice for him. He will keep doing it until one of you stand up and say ENOUGH.

 

That way he has no "responsibility".

 

If his wife kicks him out and files the divorce well then, "He didn't choose divorce, so the fact that divorce is hard on the kids, the ex-W, the extended family, well that is not his fault." he thinks to himself washing his hands of it all.

 

If you get fed up and break off the relationship, well then "He didn't choose to end the relationship with you, so it is not his fault that you are heartbroken, and feel as though your world is falling apart. Afterall, YOU chose to end the relationship, not him." he thinks to himself washing his hands of it all.

 

If he doesn't ever really make a decision then none of the pain resulting from the outcome can REALLY be his fault. At least that is what he tells himself so that he can sleep at night.

[I Miss the Kiss]

OMG! I totally feel you.. I can't believe the same thing is happening to us both at the same time.

 

You said he f*ked you after driving past his wife's house.. he f*ked me in his wife's house when she's out! He let me in to sleep over when she goes to visit her mom! Talk about 2-timing!

 

And the same thing with hoping he doesn't call.. He always does! Or emails or texts or something stupid and he always says the right thing that would make me stay!! I always think he's being genuine, but at the same time, I have a very skeptical personality and I always double check his words with his actions, where he says he is, what he does, etc. I ask questions again and again, sometimes from different angles, hoping he would make a mistake, but he never does! Makes me feel like he is for real! I make all these hoops for him to jump through, and he always does it all..

 

Now I just want to bash all the lies back into his head. Make him understand what HURT feels like. Don't f*cking cry crocodile tears at me; I WILL make him shed real ones and feel them too.

 

 

WOW You DO sound a lot like me! Especially the part about asking questions from every angle and them nevber making a mistake. He did this up until our very last converesation at 11 p.m. LAST NIGHT!!! (and he boviously already knew he was going to dump me).

 

I do feel very vindictive right now, which isn't me. I wanna call his W so bad, just to make his life hell (and to give her the answers she will NOT get from him), but I won't do it. I just can't do it.

 

I know all of you will tell me not to as well. Its energy focused in the wrong place.