Author TLH Posted April 26, 2010 Author Posted April 26, 2010 I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. Breakups are truly one of the most painful and stressful experiences. Sometimes I feel like I will never get over my ex, and I want to so bad! I can't wait till the day I don't think about what he is doing and who he's with. But right now it feels like that day will never come. It's so frustrating. I just want him out of my head!! Yesterday, I had to drive by myself for about an hour and the whole time I just bawled my eyes out. I've been trying to be strong for the past two weeks, and pretend that I'm okay. But I'm really not. And it just all came out yesterday. I don't think that I have ever cried so hard in my entire life (you can definitely tell the aftermath by the redness and puffiness of my eyes today). But I did feel much better afterward. So I think it's good that you are crying. It helps get all that sadness and pain out. Because breakups really do hurt. More than anything. So hang in there! You may not think that you are healing, but based on your posts you truly are!
northstar1 Posted April 26, 2010 Posted April 26, 2010 Hey Yume- Northstar- I wish that my ex fought for me and our relationship as well. It's kind of a huge blow to my self esteem thinking that I and we weren't worth the fight. But like I mentioned to Yume, I realized that he is a complete stranger to me now, and it's not the person that I love who didn't want to fight for us. It was this stranger. It's so sad and heartbreaking. I agree. It is more frustrating than anything else that they didn't see the forest through the trees. That relationships ebb and flow and both people need to be committed to making it work. And I wish I could have told her all this, and tell her now all this, but the other person has to be willing to listen and accept and work on it. Some people would rather just walk away than stay and fight. I just dont know how long I'll have to shoulder this regret.
yume Posted April 26, 2010 Posted April 26, 2010 yume, have seen you posting on here quite a bit, but not really heard much about your situation... did he end it, or did you? I did. Simply put, we were too different...plus a whole lot of other reasons. Yesterday, I had to drive by myself for about an hour and the whole time I just bawled my eyes out. I've been trying to be strong for the past two weeks, and pretend that I'm okay. But I'm really not. And it just all came out yesterday. I don't think that I have ever cried so hard in my entire life (you can definitely tell the aftermath by the redness and puffiness of my eyes today). Before I say anything else, I have to ask, how did you not crash your car?? If it's the major crying where you can't breathe then I can't imagine doing that and driving at the same time...you sound like a good multitasker I hate getting to that point, where you're sobbing and your nose is plugged and you can't catch a good breath...blech. I just dont know how long I'll have to shoulder this regret. I hate wondering that too. It seems like it's never-ending, that there's nothing positive down the road... TLH, I'm glad your thread has turned into a mini-coping sharing centre
SadKitty78 Posted April 26, 2010 Posted April 26, 2010 I feel the same. Basically, it's "doing the right thing"...but who knew doing the right thing could be so hard? It is hard to accept that their life no longer concerns you...I hate knowing that because I want to know that he's doing okay, and how things are going for him...some days I'm fine and others, like today, just get really hard. I feel the same way! My thoughts sometimes get the best of me and I'm imagining him having fun living his life, going to parties and bars and meeting other women and yet, as much as I want to, can't contact him! It's weird not knowing what's going on in his life, his work, his classes..how his cute little niece is doing...it breaks my heart.. I drunkenly texted him twice in the past 2 weeks since our breakup and both times I felt a bit better immediately but then after the initial rush, started to feel the pain and I realize I just can't be friends with him right now! It's too painful... As for skydiving, I have a fear of heights and flying, but I want to conquer that fear and sky dive one day!!!!
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