collegemommy Posted April 23, 2010 Posted April 23, 2010 So, I've posted a couple of threads about my current situation. I feel like I have to constantly give background just so everyone understands so I'm sorry if I keep repeating myself. I was engaged to a guy that I have literally been friends with since I was 2. We always had a thing for each other and he was always trying to get my attention growing up. I moved away for awhile but I still saw him every summer when we got together on the beach. He was my very first crush and from what I know, I was his first crush too. About 5 years ago, I came to my current state to visit for a couple of weeks during the summer. During the visit, he told me that if I ever moved back, he wanted to give dating a try. I agreed but had not real desire to move back. All my friends were in the other place... The day I was to get on the plane to go home, he told me he wanted to do the long distance relationship because he had to know that we would be together. At first I told him no because his friendship was more imporant to me then a relationship and I didn't want to screw that up. After a few days, I gave in and within a week I was already moved back. So we dated awhile, he proposed, I ended up pregnant and we were trying to gain custody of his two kids from a previous relationship. With all the chaos, we had no time to plan a wedding so it just got brushed under the carpet. For the most part, things were going ok with us. For the past few months, we have been sort of distant but not completely withdrawn from each other. We ended up breaking up 3 weeks ago. He started dating someone else almost immediately after. Ok, when I say date it more like they were just having sex. He wouldn't see her until night time because she has kids herself and would leave before the kids were up. I ended up sleeping with him a total of 3 times in the past week. She went through his phone while he was sleeping and found text messages about the two of us. I guess shortly after that they weren't dealing with each other and from what I was told, she is back with her ex. During all of this, my ex has been on the phone with me telling me he loves me and wants to work things out, blah blah blah. I have put in a lot of effort to be a much nicer person than when we were together. He has put in minimal effort to resolve issues. I just feel so over the whole thing. I want to cut him off entirely but I can't because of the child together. I don't know what to do. I love him and want to be with him but I'm just beginning to think that this just isn't in the cards...
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