One girl changes my whole world

[JimmyKnox]

Hey. Before I start, I just wanted to let you know a little bit about myself.

 

I'm pathetic. I'm probably one of the "jerks" at school and I'm too scared to admit it that I'm posting it on the Internet rather than in life. Some girls say that I use girls like a toy, and that I always just look for the best one next and next

 

Anyways. Let me give you my story.

 

Oh, plus. I'm extremely shy and rather keep to myself. I'm basically what you might call the "Edward Cullen personality." - what others call me.

 

First day of school. Girl hates me. I like her. Wierd how that works huh?

December. Girl likes me. I hate her.

Middle of December. Love happens.

March. Break up.

 

Middle of March . New girl. Girl likes me. I'm just not interested anymore.

End of March . - Went out, kiss - Except, I didn't want it. -> Break up.

 

April. New girl. Girl likes me. I like her. - Fantastic.

 

This story that I'm going to let you on is on the new girl (April). Let's name her Jess.

 

This whole situation started off on a trip that we both went to. We had a band concert together, so we went to Arkansas during the beginning of April. Anyways, I had little thought of her then, and this was before any intimacy or feelings began.

 

Anyways, during the trip, we started getting along fine, until... I hate to say it. But until I was feeling a little depressed and started releasing this depression on her and her friend. Being the Edward Cullen type, I remained to myself and I just ignored them for a long time - and of course, they new something was wrong so they confronted me about it. Later on, her friend came up to me and tried to solve what was wrong - Everything was then fine.

 

Things started to look up for me, and I started feeling happy again.

This was when things hit me.

 

When we were about to head back home, we were stuck in the airport for about 2 hours, and basically Jess sat beside me and slept on me, with her head rested against my chest and we just cuddled up.

 

I immediately fell in love. - Im easy. I know..

 

Same thing happened on the airport - but we held hands.

 

Something I dont understand is that even when we did this, she didnt say goodbye after the trip. She just got her luggage, her cello and left.

 

Her friend gave me her number and said that we would be cute together, so I called her up and texted and the whole shebang.

 

Things were looking up once again.

 

Except.. When school started, being the shy type, I was really afraid to talk to her and ended up looking like a jerk to her by not saying bye after school and giving her hugs.

 

Next day - same thing, except she came up to me after school in the hall way and just embraced me like I felt something.

 

As time passed, her friends told me she liked me, and she told me as well.

 

Things arent normal like my past girlfriends though. This is completely different.

 

She doesnt text as much. She doesnt text quickly. She doesnt call me that much. She sometimes doesnt even respond to my text.

 

Another weird thing that I overheard from my friends

 

She tells different stories to people. Telling them that she accidently slept on me and when she woke up, I was holding her hand. That she basically doesnt want to be with me.

 

Of course, hearing this made me upset because I liked her. She was the highlight of my day and I became attracted to her.

 

Then I started ignoring her again, and she knew it too. She called me later and explained the situation, saying that our school is just stupid, bla bla bla, rumours are dumb. To some extent, I agree with her, but she did not point out that she liked me and she didnt give herself, per se, to me. Its like shes almost playing me, and Im too dumb to realize it.

 

Anyways. School is weird too. Im in none of her classes, cept for Band, and the only times I get to see her is in the mornings, 1 class, lunch and after school.

 

Today, I didnt see her after school so I just went and drove my car back to my place. I later get a text asking where I was, and she tells me that I basically just passed her like a cold shoulder. I explained that I didnt see her and she says hmm well i went to your locker and you werent there. I just said.. well heres a virtual hug, and all she said was Haha.

 

I dont know what she wants from me. She tells different things. she does different things. I dont understand! I need your advice

[sagetalk]

That's a lot of text, but I read it so your welcome .

 

I assume you're in high school, if that's the case do NOT get in a serious relationship, especially a sexual one. You are very young and have a great deal of things to get straightened out before you get serious with a girl.

 

With that said, I'll analyze your situation.

 

I think alot of your attraction for this girl comes from the mysteriousness of whether she wants you or not. This is not a good thing. What you want is a girl that wants you as much as you want her. Having to pursue too much leads to her taking you for granted.

 

You want advice, here it is. Have fun when you are with her, but be careful about falling for her. Keep other girls in the picture, and don't "one it is" with her. She could end up mopping the floor with your heart otherwise.

[Green]

If you follow this advice you will be golden. Just have fun. Don't worry about if things don't work out.

[wien7777]

She just sounds like a colossal waste of time. You might have a unafvourable reputation for being a jerk (uh, stop that?) but she's behaving immaturely. Let it go and move on, for your own sake.

[JimmyKnox]

So I should just forget about her. I dont know. She said she likes me. Maybe ur right. She's playing me.

[wien7777]

Just don't waste your time with the hypothetical and her jerking you around. Just as you're aware of, there are other girls- other girls that, believe it or not, will be a bit less misleading/ambivalent about their feelings towards you. You need that from another person if you're looking for a relationship, and you have to reciprocate appropriately. I know high school is all 'mind games' and whanot, but truly- it's a waste of time. Ditch the 'moody E.C.' bollocks thing, strike up a friendship with a nice girl and let things work themselves out.

[SincereOnlineGuy]

You went to Arkansas?

 

 

I think that is the hotbed of midwestern romance.