TooMuchPride Posted April 20, 2010 Posted April 20, 2010 Well...Im Gonna start this from the beggining and try to keep it short. Almost 2 months ago i broke up with my ex, i didnt mean it and didnt think it would last seeing that its something i do whenever im frustrated and he normally begs me back and we are good to go, it isnt the best method , and it finally backfired BIGTIME.it was a long distance relationship of 7 months and at the time we broke up there woulda been 3 months before he would see me. when we broke up i was very upset so i blocked him everyway possible on the pc , he began to text the next day and then they day after but then my text limit ran up , that same night he went to a party, then 3 weeks passed and i didnt hear anything so i made my first mistake by calling him , we talked about an hour n i spoke to him as a friend,he sounded really happy and like he missed me.he told me that same night he kissed a girl, i always had i feeling he liked her but i didnt even get upset because i was happy to be talking to him, he told me unblock him on fb , i added him and that was that.after a week of being facebook friends i wanted to get back together and he basically was trying to have his cake and eat it too so i got mad and re deleted him. after a week he didnt say anything again i should have expected that but im so used to being chased that it just killed me and i ended up sending another message saying straight up i wanted to fix it lets get back he was being very resistant but basically saying ok , but i felt like i was begging and forcing him too and he kept talking about the girl that he kissed , but i felt like i had already lost my pride by begging so i had to get what i wanted..n i had it but when i told him hed have to put me in his status he said no i got pissed all over again , called him a whore and blocked :| he sent me a message elsewhere saying "y did u block me i was gonna say something,but ok" i didnt see it till 2 days later so i responded by saying i didnt wanna see anything he had to say . couple days passed and once again he said nothing , i saw a picture of him and the girl kissing on his facebook and it made me cringe, and once again like the annoying , crazy ex ive become , i sent a message , saying i saw it and that it was the closure i needed and that i now agreed cause we were both miserable and we didnt have to be friends but i didnt wanna leave it how it was so we could just be civil , at the time i still wanted him but i did kinda feel that the picture was my closure...he sad he missed me yadda yadda and we became "friends" and it was actually functional , until thursday ... he told me how he still loved me and that he thought about getting back together, and that im the reason him and the girl arent together, and that he accidently called her my name , and yadda yadda.. it really made me happy but he swore he would have just kept it on a friendly level cause once my emotions are in it its something else , he told em that int he morning and by the night time i could really tell it wasnt honest and it began to hurt me to think why would he say it if he ignores me as soon as this girl is online? i got upset AS USUAL and blocked him. im a hothead i cant control myself when im upset so i tend to block , and i guess thats no help cause thats y the relationship ended and i only show him that im still the same, quit as soon as im upset..but i really cant afford this pain ...he hasnt tried to contact me since thursday obviously and he wont and this time i dont plan to either..ive got a month till i go back home...and i know for a fact that hes happy but ive been crying allll the time everyday since...its killing me and he is happy...idk what else there is to do about this...and letting go is so hard... i still love him but he is only playing with me , i had a false alarm where his best friend who i never speak to skyped me saying "myname..." i got excited thinking he would tell me my ex missed me but he jus said whats up then bye. which made me feel even worst dealing with this since thursday has hurt than the whole breakup over all.. why would he have told me all that stuff if he didnt mean it...where do i go from here i cant go 10 minutes without breaking down...id really like a little more insight than "just get over it" advice maybe..i kno they are slim but the chance he might contact me?...
davisc123 Posted April 20, 2010 Posted April 20, 2010 Yes he probably will. I'm guessing you are quite young judging by the post? I know you said you didn't want to hear it but seriously consider just moving on with your life even when he does. If you really feel like you cant then you should seriously revise your attitude to him and in general. In my opinion he isn't really that into you or the other girl. As you said he is having his cake and eating it. I would let him come to you then just be friendly with him but don't get roped into talking about a 'realtionship' of any kind, certainly dont bring it up. I'm guessing after a short while his interest will rise. Basically just play it cool. Let him do the chasing and if he continues to act the way he has, dont get upset and block him or whatever. Just keep him at an arms length and shrug it off. If he sees your not getting upset over him the tables will turn. Hope it works out.
Author TooMuchPride Posted April 20, 2010 Author Posted April 20, 2010 yea both 18..:S thanks for the advice , if he ever does contact ill definitely use it.
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