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Hi,i would appreciate it very much if anyone could give me some advice please..

it may be quite a long one.

 

i am 21,when i was 18 i came from a hometown to a different one to go to college,there i met new friends at college so when my mum decided she was moving 100 mile away i decided to move to my college town and live with a family friend who is 73 years old.i decided to quit college and find a job,in the meantime i met a man who was 21 at the time,he had been in the navy for 5 years and never had a serious relationship before.he regularly came to see me as he lived with his dad around the corner and we began a relationship.i eventually found a job and after 6 months we decided to get a house together.Everything was brilliant even when i lost the job,i havent had much luck with jobs as i have been made redundant 2 times and my ex paid for almost everything for 8 months whilst i wasnt in work.i then got a job at a bank n was there for 6months,everything was going excellent,me and my ex have always been so in love until i was diagnosed a health problem and needed to attend hospital appointments for which my employers layed me off.As soon as this happened my ex moved back to his dads and said he would come back when i get a job which i understood,that was 2 months ago,at first he came and saw me every night but when he has had a drink he argues with me and says very hurtful things like i never had a job (which i have) last weekend we had a good weekend and i last saw him the tuesday when he was loving and went back to his dads..then he text me on wednesday and thursday saying he didnt feel well and he wasnt coming,then on friday i rang him and he said how hes fed up of coming to see me and iv never had a job,how our relationship is ****.over the past 2 months he has really hurt me with things he says and one minute is loving and the next like he cant stand me....i had put up with him upsetting me all the time and told him that it was over and could he come get his things.he came down and said that he just needed a change in his life.i have come to stay with my mum for a week and text him,he said we will talk when i get back and he needs some space...i have been totally heartbroken and confused,he says hes fed up of paying for us to do things on a weekend when i would happily stay in.he is a big drinker.now i have text him 2 days ago pouring my heart out to him...i am looking for a job and want nothing more than to find one him to come home.i am really lost right now..he hasnt text back to me at all.i phoned asking if i could speak hes asked me to phone me back in an hour but switched his phone off.i just need to know if we have a chance of working this out and if not i can move on with my life...he is so selfish and speaks really nasty to me sometimes and also says how he saved me from living with an old man which when i lived there i was very happy in myself.but i do love him very much...does anyone know what i should do? text him or leave him to it.

 

sorry its so long,thankyou