LostInLimbo Posted April 15, 2010 Posted April 15, 2010 (edited) I am poster since may of 2009, and hope I can get some advice, support.... My situation/relationship has been done since Jan 2010 (4th time), I was in a 4 yr relationship that involved 2 (6 and 12) kids as well. My ex (32) had left me 3 times prior to the last, always wanting to comeback and I (40) had welcomed her back, even when I knew she cheated on me twice before, as she would send me txt msgs here and there during these breakups. Its been since Feb when I last heard from her and since then I was doing pretty good, til I just found out she posted pics of her and a guy on FB, I never looked for it, it came to me from a mutual friend who is on her contact list. I hadn't seen this person for sometime, but she told me about it, without me being able to stop her and never asked her anything further. When I found this out, I felt sick, like my life just got sucked out of me, and want to so badly text her, but know I can't. I am not sure why I am feeling this way, after how she had treated me for the 4 yrs, knowing this was a person who walked out on her children, who she left with her Ex to look after, which is killing me now that my bond with them is gone for sure and someone who had walked out on me 4 times, always wanting to come back, til this last time, where it now seems convenient for her not to txt me and im the one now hurting. Just feeling down and confused, like I was replaced so fast and easily, like things don't matter and it was all for nothing, I want to text her kids, but they have never text me, so I wouldn't, just feeling abandoned at this point and know I will snap out of it, just seems like a setback once again, when things seemed to be going good.. LiL Edited April 15, 2010 by LostInLimbo
Ronni_W Posted April 15, 2010 Posted April 15, 2010 Hugs, LiL. It sucks...even though there was pro'ly some part of you that knew it was gonna happen sooner or later. It's also the kind of info that's needed for you to get to the next step in "healing & recovery", though -- a temporary a step back...and then, before you know it, you're gonna be skipping a buncha steps forward. Permanently In the meantime, take Life easy and be gentle with your Self.
Author LostInLimbo Posted April 15, 2010 Author Posted April 15, 2010 Thanks Ronni, seems as the minutes go by the hrs go by, after hearing this, its going away, that icky feeling, what keeps me going strong and gets me stronger is I tell myself, I never once cheated on her, and proud of myself when I could have and that I had no choice in this matter, wasn't me who left n e of the times. I kinda figured it out, that there maybe someone else and they may go through what I went through (not sure) as she finds it so easy to up and walk away, until she is the hurting one, then she returns, also felt that the pics were posted, also knowing it would get back to me... I also Have to say that a few songs are helping me out LiL
jerrytodd Posted April 16, 2010 Posted April 16, 2010 I recall your earlier posts and I got one of those moments with my ex this week. Very tough. Reading these posts and I can vouch for looking for "grass is greener" posts here and other forums. We never stood a chance! Hope you are feeling better soon. Letting it out helps.
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