Warm Posted April 14, 2010 Posted April 14, 2010 (edited) Hi all I dunno why, but im gonna explain this in the third person. Because my head cant take much more of this 'me me me' nonsense. I think doing it this way might stop me crying or writing a 40000 page essay. Ill call myself Aaron. Aaron was going out with Jane for 10 years. Jane dumped Aaron out of the blue almost 2 years ago (see earlier posts for full story) Aaron was devastated, did nc, let her go gracefully and started trying to rebuild his life. Aaron started reconnecting with old friends. One of his best old friends had a flat mate who fancied Aaron. (5 months after his breakup) Aaron said "Im flattered, but its way to early, i need to be able to stand on my own two feet first". Friend and her flatmate persisted and Aaron gave in. Wasnt too hard Lets call the flatmate. Amy. (i duuno why im making up names here) Amy turns out to be a 1 in a million girl. Now i suppose everyone says this about their love. But Amy is a 1 in a million girl to everyone who knows her and the patients who she looks after. She has had a tough life, but instead of feeling sorry for herself lives her life in service to others. Shes a cross between Michelle Pfieffer and Mother Teresa. Amy starts falling head over heels for Aaron. Aaron keeps warning her and others that this is dangerous. She persists and Aaron cant resist. Aaron thinks he is falling for Amy, but hides it from her because he is so confused because of what happened with Jane. He knows its way to soon and he doesnt trust his feelings. He thinks a girl like Amy sounds too good to be true. Especially after all the hurt hes been through and still felt. One day amy says "I would let you stay at home all day and make music while i went out to work and supported you" This is all Aaron has ever wanted in his life but cant get his head around it. How could a person be this loving? Aaron gave up making music for Jane to go back to college and landed a great job to support them. Aaron got offered 8 grand more than he asked for in the interview. Aaron should probably stop boasting about it But its Aarons favourite achievment. Aaron is very very very confused. Aaron needed to figure out his feelings and broke up with Amy. Aaron had been with Amy for 7 months. It wasnt planned, but it was the second time. He really wanted to be by himself to figure out what was going on. Amy was extremely hurt.. Amy said to Aaron "When you find yourself, please come back and find me". The first thing Aaron did was call up Jane and have a chat after almost 1 year NC. He did it to clear the air, not to get back with her. Jane is very happy with another man now, and Aaron was very happy for her. Shes awesome too:) Now Aaron wanted some time to himself to figure out his feelings for Amy. 6 weeks after they had broken up, Amy went away for a week and Aaron had a revelation. That Amy was actually the one. How did he know? Shes the only woman he has ever been with that he could see himself being with he was 90 years old. He saw himself having kids with her and never with Jane. He really want to be the one who gets to look after her. And he thought all these things from the minute he met her. But it was hard being in love with Two people at the same time. Aaron knows that Amy hadnt felt like this about someone in years. The day Amy came back from her trip, she rang Aaron. Aaron was dying to blurt it all out, but Amy got there first. She had hooked up with a mutual friend on holiday and they were going to make a go of it. All the new friends & old friends that Aaron had made were friends with Amy and her new boyfriend, and Aaron couldnt face being around them. He had gotten so much support from them when he had broken up with Jane and now had no where to turn. Aaron had a breakdown. Aaron woke up crying for 43 days in a row. Loosing Jane was hard enough, but loosing Amy on top of it was too much to handle for him. Aaron went to a festival/gig to try and snap himself out of it. Aaron met a girl there and immediately started going out with her. Aaron broke up with her recently after 7 months together. This girl (er Jenny) was the classic rebound. But the confusing thing is that she was a rebound of rebound. And the even more confusing thing is that she exacly like Jane Aaron is 1 week out of that relationship is still trying to get over Amy. But he cant. He has deleted her number, left facebook and knows she still cares for him and tries to hook up with him. Aaron has not seen any of his friends or amy since he broke up. He drives home to his parents alot and sits beside the sea and wishes Amy was there with him. He wishes she was with him all the time. He was able to get over Jane by repeating "Her loss" over and over in his head.. but when hes trying to get over Amy all he hears in his head is "Your loss". Aaron is now typing all this crap on loveshack to see what people think. Edited April 14, 2010 by Warm
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