LK30 Posted April 11, 2010 Posted April 11, 2010 I'm really missing my gf since we split up 3 months ago. I feel like i'm making progress, then it gets to the weekend and that's when I usually end up missing her. I wish i could turn back time, and NC is really not helping. I just hate feeling this constant 'numbness' in my head and starting to panic that i'm not getting over it by now. I expect she doesn't even think about me, or perhaps she is with someone else now, i just don't know but I think about her every day. I've resisted contacting her as I know she will be stubborn and won't take me back. She said I had many doubts about her and she didn't like the uncertainty. It's her b'day next month and debating sending a card, however I expect this is breaking the NC rule! What do u think? Just don't feel so good and i'm so fed up feeling low - god knows how I put on a brave and happy face at work. It really is so false. I look forward to going to work just to focus on something and even work after hours to keep my mind occupied. Has anybody met anyone who is more of a saddo than me?!!
Full Moon Posted April 11, 2010 Posted April 11, 2010 It takes time. What you're experiencing is normal so keep pushing forward. Btw, did you break up with her?
Author LK30 Posted April 12, 2010 Author Posted April 12, 2010 Hi Full Moon, thanks for your reply. To answer your question, it was me who had some doubts on a couple of occasions, and in the end we agreed to have a short break then she decided things couldn't be fixed. I guess she'd argue that she rejected me, but the whole time we were together she never got jittery. I raised a few issues I had and she must've felt things couldn't be fixed. Funny thing is was nothing major, just I had issues with her communication and she was quite indecisive. She also used to come to mine most of time as she lived with her family and it often felt things weren't equal financially. For some reason I just had some doubts and that she didnt fit in with my friends and family too, but then again she said I made little effort with her friends and she'd often make excuses why I wasn't with her. I wish in a way she had done the dirty or taken my money as at least I could be thankful I'm not with her but I still do miss her as she didnt really do anything really that wrong and perhaps I just didn't appreciate what I had. It's my own fault, I know!!
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