heartbr0ken Posted April 10, 2010 Posted April 10, 2010 I'm going to make this as short as possible without leaving out important details. I met a girl from Georgia when we were both 18. I live in California. When she went back to Georgia, we both talked on the phone everyday. We quickly fell in love with each other. We were so perfect for each other. She is beautiful, loving, and understanding; everything I wanted in a woman. Just months after we met, I got in trouble with the law and thought I was going to do some time. She told me she would wait for me until I got out. Lucky I only did a week in jail. We continued to talk everyday and never ran out of things to talk about. I was in love. People told me that it was not real love and I'll get over it but five years later till this day, she is still the only woman that I've ever fell in love with. I've dated a handful of girls but I have never fell in love with any of them. I went to Georgia to see her again and we made love and spent lots of time with each other. To be honest, I was a dick to her at times. I was young and dumb and even slept with a girl in my area behind her back (which I regret so much). Even though I treated her wrong she still stood by my side because of love. She even got a tattoo of my name. As years passed, she couldn't handle the long distance relationship and her feelings for me faded. My feelings for her never went away; I've always loved her. She eventually started dating other guys in her area. Not soon after, I feel as if she does not love me any more. She then hooked up with some guy last year and has sex with him. She promised me that if we didn't work out, she would not have sex until she is married. That promise was obviously broken. When I found out, I ignored her for one year, something I've never done before. I cried so much that day and I screamed in the mirror "stop letting me suffer." Keep in mind I was going through a lot at the time too and I NEVER cry. I've never experienced such emotional pain. Well just yesterday we spoke on the phone for the first time a year. I am 23 now and she is 22. I'm still heartbroken and nothing can be done to fix it unless I can change the past. Love is such a beautiful thing a couple can experience but it has to be mutual. When it's not mutual, it can be so ****ed up... I'm still hurt till this day. It is some thing I am going to experience for the rest of my life. Obviously it sucks for me but I still wish the best for her even though I don't tell her that. She is still with the same guy and I am somewhat glad. Even she told me that she knows nobody will love her as much as I do. I honestly don't think I can love another woman at this point. I think I am going to be a "player" for the rest of my life now. I don't trust women. I'm no longer going to take a chance at love. Love is a gamble. To all of the lovers out there, please do everything you can to make it work out. Don't cheat or deceive your lover. Don't end up like me.
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