LostMe Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 Just a bad day. I'm working on my marriage etc etc and there are many good days. But today: I hate that he's just cut me out of his life like i mean nothing. I hate that we didn't/he won't discuss it. I hate that he says he's just busy. I hate that i analyse this to mean that he's struggling too when maybe it's just he doesn't want to talk to me. I hate that i can't tell him i know he phoned my office looking for me as he'll say i'm reading too much into it. I hate that we're not close anymore. I hate that if I hear anything about his life it's from other people. I hate that i miss him. I hate that i still care about any of this as it.just.doesn't.matter.anymore. It's just a bad day.
jennie-jennie Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 ((((LostMe))))) Losing someone you love just hurts so bad. It is like you pay the price according to how much you loved them. The more you loved them, the more you hurt afterwards.
her_halo_slipped Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 Just a bad day. I'm working on my marriage etc etc and there are many good days. But today: I hate that he's just cut me out of his life like i mean nothing. I hate that we didn't/he won't discuss it. I hate that he says he's just busy. I hate that i analyse this to mean that he's struggling too when maybe it's just he doesn't want to talk to me. I hate that i can't tell him i know he phoned my office looking for me as he'll say i'm reading too much into it. I hate that we're not close anymore. I hate that if I hear anything about his life it's from other people. I hate that i miss him. I hate that i still care about any of this as it.just.doesn't.matter.anymore. It's just a bad day. Yes...it is just a bad day. One that will pass. Hugs to you.
EyesOpened Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 I feel for you Lostme - bad days just SUCK. I have lots myself. Lets just keep hoping there are more good than bad! Hugs to u.
greengoddess Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 Sorry you are having a bad day. You know if you REALLY are working on your marriage maybe you should share these bad day feelings with your husband and talk about it.
Heather1 Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 It gets a little easier....then again, I've severed all ties so I don't really hear about him. I set that up awhile ago, just in case I'd have to. Try to stay busy. Punch a wall, but try not to cave. Sometimes I write letters to myself from him & it makes me feel better & it helps me empathize. Everything goes in the shredder of course. I actually did run into his employee & I was upbeat & happy. Didn't mention him at all, told him my trip was a blast. Don't think it will be reported back to OM, but at least I wasn't a pinning disaster asking about him. It's a start. Skiing with kids today.....the name of my game is BUSY!! I want my life back! Hope you feel better....
Passion4Life Posted April 9, 2010 Posted April 9, 2010 Just a bad day. I'm working on my marriage etc etc and there are many good days. But today: I hate that we didn't/he won't discuss it.I hate that he says he's just busy. I hate that i analyse this to mean that he's struggling too when maybe it's just he doesn't want to talk to me. I hate that i can't tell him i know he phoned my office looking for me as he'll say i'm reading too much into it. I hate that we're not close anymore. I hate that if I hear anything about his life it's from other people. I hate that i miss him. I hate that i still care about any of this as it.just.doesn't.matter.anymore. It's just a bad day. well frankly u should not even think of working on ur marriage if u can say these three I hate that we didn't/he won't discuss it. I hate that he says he's just busy. I hate that we're not close anymore. what if he decides he want to discuss it ,or says he is not busy or wants to be close again ? which is highly likely in case of mm & as obvious u will go back to him , so why waste ur effort in working on ur marriage until u are done with missing him ?
Author LostMe Posted April 10, 2010 Author Posted April 10, 2010 Thank you guys it is just a bad day, tomorrow will be better I'm sure. It means a lot to have people here I can share the situation with, who know what I'm going through no matter how irrational and illogical it all is. Some days it's just too hard to be strong. Some days I just want to feel sorry for myself for while, whether I deserve to or not!! hey, I'm only human!! I'm away for the weekend with some really good girl friends and it's just the tonic I need. The good thing is, i missing my husband who says women are complicated???!! The support is much appreciated, it was all I was looking for really. Onward and upward!
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