onewillburn Posted April 8, 2010 Posted April 8, 2010 Anybody sometimes feel like they've been stranded and are in a kind of survival mode? The break up and various things that happened afterward kind of jumbled up my world. Through my healing I've noticed that when I start feeling down, my mind tries to put me into this perspective where I'm like some former gang member who's been turned on by all of its members. They attacked me and left me for dead, but I survived and am now getting by in the world with no help from others. Hopefully that doesn't sound too crazy, but what I'm basically asking is if you've ever felt completely alienated or abandoned but still motivated to keep going? My old girl left me, and a lot of my old friends don't talk to me anymore, so there was a point initially after the break up where I had a lot of alone time. I pretty much felt like Bruce Wayne, haha. I read a lot and worked out a lot. I even kind of grew a pretty awesome beard. It felt like a vacation from reality. I also took a lot of risks I never would have taken. I stopped caring about a lot of the inhibitions I had. This has yielded both positive and negative results. But even since my days as Bruce Wayne, I still sometimes get that feeling like I've been abandoned. It's been a while since the break up and who knows how long since we've been in contact. I've slept with other girls, made new friends and hobbies, etc. Why do I still feel abandoned? I still feel like the product of the break up rather than just a guy living his life. I feel like the plot of the story is still unfolding. That probably isn't good. You could say that I've developed new plots, but I tend not to pay as much attention to the new developments in my life. I still feel like I'm coming out of the old ones.
nobmagnet Posted April 8, 2010 Posted April 8, 2010 Hi, sorry you feel so abandoned I am in limbo waiting for my life to start properly. I am unable to move on completely until i have sold this house and have one of my own. So i get where you are as you have been thrown a chance of a life completely different to the one you thought you were going to have. Being given so many choises can be really weird. Basicly the world is your oyster and I personally dont know what to do first. I personally feel re.born excited but unable to do anything yet. Maybe for you, given time you will start to fulfill dreams and ambitions?? Love the bushy beard mate! i cant grow a full one (im a girl :lmao:) but i am finding growing my leg hair hilarious!!! i will need to mow it soon!!!! Take care Nobby xx:love:
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