to be or not to be....

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my boyfriend broke up with me about 6months ago. This break up took me by a complete surprise. The day we broke up he mentioned how he wanted to do things better and him beling a religious guy, he told me he felt the need to seek God without any distraction. But he wanted to stay friends and let me know that the thought of loosing me completley was hard. Previously, he had announced me that he would propose to me by end of the year....well we broke up right before the holidays. Since the break up I tried to keep my head straight and move on, but didn't last long. I called him a week after the break up and talked for 3hrs. He concluded by saying I was the only person he ever thought of reconcilating. 2more weeks go by no contact from him. So I go on a same trip with him through work. I shared my vulnerable ways and ended up spending the night together.He even wrote a letter to my brother about how sorry he is. Later that he emails me and texts me to see if I am doing okay. Then I tried not to make any contact with him, but as nature of our job, we can see each-others schedule and saw that he had called off for the first time. I texted him to see if he was okay. He calls me back right away and updates me on whats going on. couple days before christmas i send him a christmas card, he gives me a call later that day to wish me happy holidays too. Conversation got into the wrong direction and I let him know that I was still suffuring and told him I didn't understand how he tries to convience me that this is real, when I finally accepted it, he lets go. any ways i told him the best way for me is to move on and didn't contact him for a month. During that month, he texted me to apologize for getting frustrated and sent me a christmas card containig, no matter what happends in the future....I will never forget you. After a month I was reading this stupid ebook telling me to contact him to meet with him. So I invited him for a beer and set the time and date. He agreed to meet with me, but last min. scheduling changes made me impossible to keep the date. So I apologized him for not being able to meet and I thanked him for willing to meet up. Since that time we have not spoke once. and its been 2months. Is it time to complelety move on or try to see if this will go anywhere?