confused_pjl Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 Today marks 8 weeks of NC with my EX. She did send me a FB message last week but I chose to delete it and not respond. It was nonsense and only had to do with a check that was coming here for her. Anyways, this weekend was the first holiday that I celebrated without her. It was really hard. Every holiday all my family gets together for dinner, drinking and games. We always had a great time and looked forward to the holidays because of it. The weather was beautiful here so I spent a lot of time with friends and outside on patios/ restaurants. I was doing really well until the day I had dinner with my family. The entire day felt like someone kept squeezing my heart. I was doing my best not to think about her but my heart kept telling me something was wrong. I felt lost and still do today. I haven't cried in over a week but feel that I'm on the verge of an emotional breakdown. I'm trying really hard to be strong. I'm actually very impressed with myself that I didn't breakdown this weekend, especially when I was with all my family. Its hard trying not to miss her...... This is so hard
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