sweetseraph Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 I've already made a post but I thought I should probably introduce myself since reading some of what is on this board I think I may finally have found people who can relate to my situation.... My name is Sarah, I am a 28 year old single mother of 2 beautiful children aged 2.5 and 8 months. We live in Canada. I have been separated from my ex for approximately 6 months. Our separation wasn't a simple break. It was filled with mind games that have me confused to this day. He hooked up with a 21 year old 3 days after we broke up and as far as I know she moved in about a month after that. During this time we were talking about getting back together, I had no clue he moved her into the house we bought for our family. Ever the idiot that I am I believed, even though she was moved in, that he really still wanted to be with me as he told me he did. As little as a month ago he was talking about being confused and wanting to be with me. He denies this now, just like he denies the times we slept together. I am stuck on him, mind games, emotional abuse from our relationship, it all doesn't seem to matter. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep alone at night. I feel empty without him. I feel like a part of me is missing. We had been together for 9 years. I still swear I can feel what he is feeling and I want this to stop. I hate being so sad all the time. I can keep myself occupied but my mind always drifts back to him. I want him to snap out of it and realize he made a mistake and his family is important. This is like a rollercoaster running out of control and I can't take much more of this!
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