confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 So he has been calling lately... and I have been ignoring him mostly Then I somehow ended up over at his house and we just hung out No sex.. I left really quick.. and was all proud of myself I thought I got some answers I understand that there are deal breakers... irreconcilable differences between us BUT I still love him I can't stop thinking about him and it hurts worse than ever because I felt so close to him after seeing him Now I am soo confused and depressed Part of me wants to give up what I want because I want to be with him that bad and I don't even know if that's possible I drove past all the bars on my way home tonight and I thought about just crawling in and hitting the bottle really hard I also want to just hide but I don't even know what I want to hide from other than life.... The weirdest part is I went to see him because I wanted to feel alive (does that even make sense?) something about being with him makes me feel so alive What do I do???
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 You must avoid him completely. Thats the only way you will heal. I know how you feel though though. I miss my ex so bad tonite I can hardly stand it.
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 You must avoid him completely. Thats the only way you will heal. I know how you feel though though. I miss my ex so bad tonite I can hardly stand it. The terrible thing is I have avoided him completely for long periods of time and here I am again back at square one and so far from being able to do NC... How do I decide that I never want to talk to him again or see him if that is the only thing I want to do... It's like a drug
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 The terrible thing is I have avoided him completely for long periods of time and here I am again back at square one and so far from being able to do NC... How do I decide that I never want to talk to him again or see him if that is the only thing I want to do... It's like a drug I know , it is like a drug. But the only way to avoid the addiction is to avoid the drug.. Believe me, I know the hell you are going through. All I want to do is see my ex. But I wont. She doesnt want me anymore so I'm not going back to square one. You shouldnt either
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 I know , it is like a drug. But the only way to avoid the addiction is to avoid the drug.. Believe me, I know the hell you are going through. All I want to do is see my ex. But I wont. She doesnt want me anymore so I'm not going back to square one. You shouldnt either Have you made a solid NC commitment???
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 Have you made a solid NC commitment??? 5 months so far
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 5 months so far WOW that's a long time AND is it getting any easier? What's your plan? How long are you going to keep NC?? (forever?? or at least until you are over it)
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 WOW that's a long time AND is it getting any easier? What's your plan? How long are you going to keep NC?? (forever?? or at least until you are over it) Yes it's easier. I figure I can end NC when I'm finally over her. I have no idea how long that will be
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 Yes it's easier. I figure I can end NC when I'm finally over her. I have no idea how long that will be How do you do it though? What do you do on the weak days? Does she ever randomly contact you? Do you just have faith... that one day you will be over her
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 How do you do it though? What do you do on the weak days? Does she ever randomly contact you? Do you just have faith... that one day you will be over her When I have a weak day, I skydive She has tried to randomly contact me; I ignore it I know I will be over her one day, just like you will be too
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 When I have a weak day, I skydive She has tried to randomly contact me; I ignore it I know I will be over her one day, just like you will be too Thanks I can't help but laugh that your solution for everything is skydiving I'm seriously considering trying it You must have converted some people on LS to it Anyways is it really expensive??
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 Thanks I can't help but laugh that your solution for everything is skydiving I'm seriously considering trying it You must have converted some people on LS to it Anyways is it really expensive?? I know I say that too much. But it really is true. You come out here and I'll tandem w/ya. It's about 100 bucks a jump while you're training (10 jumps or so) then 21.00 a jump after that. And no, I have no LS converts, only people telling me to shut up about it. Anyway, I hope you feel better soon.
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 I know I say that too much. But it really is true. You come out here and I'll tandem w/ya. It's about 100 bucks a jump while you're training (10 jumps or so) then 21.00 a jump after that. And no, I have no LS converts, only people telling me to shut up about it. Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. That's really not too bad Is it scary your first time???
skydiveaddict Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 That's really not too bad Is it scary your first time??? yes.................
ingridh Posted April 5, 2010 Posted April 5, 2010 You must avoid him completely. Thats the only way you will heal. Listen to sda. Go straight to NC. Now. And do not look back. I know how you feel though though. I miss my ex so bad tonite I can hardly stand it. NC almost 2 months now. Not a word from ex either. I am still angry at him and will not stop hating him for how he had treated me. However, at times, I do miss him, just like sda, so much I can barely stand it. What do I do? I cry, take a hot shower, read caliguy's Guide to NC over and over and over and over again..... one hour at a time, one day at a time. Hang in there :bighugs:
Author confused and broken Posted April 5, 2010 Author Posted April 5, 2010 Listen to sda. Go straight to NC. Now. And do not look back. NC almost 2 months now. Not a word from ex either. I am still angry at him and will not stop hating him for how he had treated me. However, at times, I do miss him, just like sda, so much I can barely stand it. What do I do? I cry, take a hot shower, read caliguy's Guide to NC over and over and over and over again..... one hour at a time, one day at a time. Hang in there :bighugs: Thanks I really want to go NC but I am scared... I don't know if I can do it but I guess one day at a time...
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